As for the fact that he might have fallen asleep there, it was definitely because he hadn't slept well in the past few days and was too tired.
After entering the room, he wanted to go straight to the familiar big bed.
But for some unknown reason, he opened the bedside table.
When he saw a brown-covered diary inside, he hesitated for a moment, but still took it out quietly.
"I just want to get to know her, not to spy on her."
After staring at it for a full ten minutes, Huo Sihan finally stretched out his sinful hand and opened the brown leather cover.
Lines of beautiful words come into view...
June 6th: I got married today. Looking at the red book in my hand, I couldn’t quite believe it.
It was very quiet around me. I sat on the bed, feeling very nervous, but when I thought of my mother in the hospital, I gained courage.
June 13th: The Su family lied to me. They said it was just a normal marriage, but I had a vague feeling that something was wrong.
June 20th: Mom was very angry today because she knew that I married into the Huo family just to get the Su family to pay for her treatment.
June 26th: On the twentieth day after arriving at the Huo family, he came back, but he was still very cold and didn't even say a word to me.
I finally confirmed my guess that this was a marriage that was not mutually agreed upon.
But now that things have come to this, I can only move forward. My mother is still in the hospital.
July 3: I thought about it for a whole week and decided to try to save this marriage, even though it didn't start off well.
July 8th: I think my previous thoughts were too naive.
July 20th: Forget it, let it be. At least mom can survive, and being alive is the most important thing.
August 10: My second uncle called me today.
I finally realized how embarrassing my situation was in the Huo family.
I'm in a bad mood. Maybe I should drink something sweet so that it won't feel so bitter.
August 29: My uncle called me today.
When my father died in a car accident, I knew that the world was dark.
Today I finally understood how cruel a person's heart can be.
October 1st: The streets are bustling, but I feel they are very far away from me. Sometimes, I really want to find a place where there is no one, live alone, and don’t have to face the complicated human heart.
December 5th: Today is my birthday, but I am not happy at all. I can even say that I am in a terrible mood.
This world is too dirty. Sometimes I think it’s better to leave. But I still have my mother.
…
Seeing those words that hinted at helplessness towards life and disappointment towards the world, Huo Sihan felt as if his heart was being stabbed by a needle.
It hurts a lot.
It hurts like never before.
The scene of her lying alone on the hospital bed, her small face pale, flashed through my mind.
Imagine that it is just such a small person, but when no one knows, he faces all the injustice alone and strong.
Faced with the indifference and disregard he brought to him, he was obviously very sad, but he had to pretend to be strong and smile. Regret was like a rolling wave that instantly drowned him.
Although he didn't like her much before, he didn't really hate her.
He was just used to not getting too close to anyone, and not giving anyone the chance to hurt him.
Unexpectedly, it was his instinctive avoidance that caused her great harm.
If... If he could have shown her a little more concern at that time, or even said one more word...
Maybe, maybe it wouldn't be so difficult for her, and she wouldn't be so sad.
However... there are no ifs.
He gently closed the diary and put it back in its place, then Huo Sihan lay down on the European-style bed with his clothes on.
The familiar smell surrounded him again.