Jin Canghan originally thought that after that night, the woman in front of him would at least sense something was wrong, but she didn't.
Not only that, he also kept throwing himself into Jin Moli's arms and showing his love for her.
"It's been so long, and you didn't realize it at all. You never even doubted it. You really didn't take me to heart at all. You really didn't take me seriously at all. In your world... there is no me, no me, Jin Canghan."
Jin Canghan has been in great pain these days.
The source of his pain was that he discovered that the person Su Qiao liked and cared about was Jin Moli, not himself, the person he hated.
He was in pain. Even if he wanted to compete with Jin Moli, he had no reason or opportunity.
He was a man without an identity, and in her eyes, there was no him either.
Jin Canghan felt a strong jealousy towards Jin Moli.
For the first time, Jin Canghan felt that the world was unfair and that God was unfair to him.
"Why! Why is everyone only looking at Jin Moli? Why can't anyone see me?"
"Why am I, a person with the same Jin family blood, forced to live a lonely and cold life in that dark underground palace day after day?"
He was unwilling to accept that his future life would be like this.
He also wants to pursue the things he likes, have the woman he likes, have his own children, and have a complete family.
But all these things, which seemed easy to obtain in the eyes of ordinary people, were something he could not obtain even if he tried his best.
He had clearly met the person he liked, and he was about to have his own child, so why couldn't they fulfill his wish this time
A tear finally slid down from the corner of his eye. He looked at the pale person on the bed with blurred vision, his face full of tenderness and affection.
"I had already given up hope. I thought my life was destined to be spent in such endless darkness and loneliness, but you suddenly appeared."
"That day, I was afraid that you would fall to the ground and get cold, so I wanted to carry you to the bed, but you suddenly opened your eyes and looked straight at me."
"Those clear yet confused eyes were like a stream of light suddenly blooming before my eyes, like a warm current instantly warming my cold and gloomy world."
"Do you know how fast my heart was beating? Do you know how my blood was boiling? Do you really think I was drugged or drunk?"
"I can't control my joy, my heart, or my body."
"I want to own you so much. I want to have you. Since I was old enough to understand, I have never wanted to own something so strongly."
"When I hugged you, it was like hugging the whole world. I actually felt that the world wasn't so cold or dark anymore."
Jin Canghan gently lifted her hand and kissed the back of her hand, his closed eyes filled with pain and struggle.
"I... I really... really want to be with you..."
"But...but you are his woman, his woman!"
"They won't let me have you, they don't want me to get close to you!"
"It would be great if you hadn't entered the palace. If you hadn't entered the palace, I could have come to find you. I could have taken you far away. We could have gone far away."
"We will have our own home and children with our blood. I will work hard to make money so that you and the children can live a good life. We will live this life happily and peacefully."
When Jin Canghan opened his eyes again, there was a hint of longing, but then his dream was shattered and he fell back into the cruel reality.