Wu Haishan gently stroked her hair and sighed helplessly: "Yani, your sister looked down on me at the beginning, and I swore at that time that I must rely on my own hands to let you live a good life.
I wanted to give you and our child a bright future, the best life, and impress your sister, but later I realized that reality was far more cruel than I had imagined."
"In the past six months, I have been under too much pressure and my temper has been getting worse and worse. Sometimes I get impatient and say things without thinking, but please believe me, I really didn't mean it."
"In fact, the more this happens, the more I hate myself. I hate my incompetence. I hate myself for not being able to give you the best life and for making you suffer so much because of me."
"You said I always drink and always come home so late, but in fact it's just because I feel so bad and don't want to come back and vent my anger on you. I want to leave all my troubles outside, but unfortunately, I didn't do it completely and still hurt you."
Wu Haishan spoke with deep emotion and moving voice, his eyes turned red and tears wet the corners of his eyes.
When he first came, he was indeed full of hope and enthusiasm. He believed that with his education and abilities, he would be able to make a name for himself here soon. So when his parents, brothers and sisters wanted to stay with him, he did not object.
After his marriage to Suyani was hindered and her sister opposed it, his self-esteem was indeed hurt a little, but this did not make him negative. Instead, it motivated him to work hard to climb up.
After repeated unsuccessful attempts to find a job, he was forced to join his current factory. After entering the factory, he was ostracized and ridiculed. The accumulation of blows again and again made him finally realize the cruel reality.
He did hate his own incompetence time and time again, and he did worry about Su Yani and didn't want to show his bad side in front of her, so he tried to go home later.
But later, after meeting Zhuzhu, he suddenly didn't want to keep going like this. He wanted to take a simpler shortcut. He wanted to succeed too much and was too eager for success.
He wanted to live a good life with his parents who had worked hard all their lives, and wanted his younger brothers and sisters to live a good life with him. He also wanted Su Xiaomei, the woman who looked down on him in the past, to see that she was blind.
Suyani didn't expect him to cry, and was a little overwhelmed, "Haishan... I... I don't blame you."
Wu Haishan wiped his eyes and hugged her in his arms: "But the more you don't blame me and the more you treat me well, the more guilty I feel. I feel like I'm not a human being. How could I get angry at you when you were pregnant and say nonsense to hurt you?"
"And... and I did something that even I can't forgive myself. I... the ring I gave you was fake. I carefully selected it in the boutique."
"At that time, I wanted to be with you so much, I wanted to marry you so much, and I also wanted to give you a beautiful wedding. I wanted you to marry me happily like other girls. I wanted you to have what other girls have..."
Wu Haishan suddenly hit his head with his fist, as if a trapped beast was struggling, his eyes were wet, and he kept blaming himself.
"But I'm useless. I can't do it. I can only laughably sneak around all the boutiques in the city to pick out a cheap ring for you that I think is beautiful and special, but in fact can't hide it at all."