There will never be anyone to wake him up to exercise or teach him how to make breakfast and cook.
No one will care whether he grows two centimeters taller or has stronger and more muscular arms.
Never again...
He couldn't find her, he couldn't find her anywhere, he had lost her.
She abandoned him and really didn't want him anymore.
Yu Shengan became more and more panicked, like a madman. Every day when he returned home, he was dissatisfied with everything he saw and smashed everything in the house.
He would never clean the house again, would never mop the floor if it was a little dirty, would never fold the quilt neatly and then unfold it again, would never organize the closet, and would never clean the kitchen.
There was a layer of dust in the kitchen, and there were instant noodle boxes and soup in the sink. They were moldy and no one cared about them.
Home is no longer the clean, cozy place full of sunshine it used to be, but has become his hotel.
There is no other use for it except having to go home to sleep at night, eat some instant noodles, and vent my emotions which are becoming more and more violent day by day.
His eyes were like the abyss, and now he could only see darkness.
He had a ferocious beast imprisoned in his chest, and the man who could tame it was gone.
He is an abandoned orphan, he is a beggar, he is a thief, he is a stray dog, everyone hates him and everyone avoids him.
He always keeps his head down and never dares to look people in the eye. He lives in bridge holes, weeds in parks, and underground passages in subway stations.
His world was filled with dampness and darkness. Rats were his companions, snakes and insects were his food, and the homeless people who competed with him for food and a dry place were his biggest enemies.
He was not afraid of the darkness or his enemies, but he was most afraid of getting sick.
Because when you are sick, you have to go hungry, can't find food, and your shelter may be taken away by others.
There is only white and black in his eyes, never any color.
Some people say that the rainbow is colorful and the most beautiful color in the world, but he once saw it after a heavy rain and it was not beautiful at all.
To him, it was just like the clouds beside him, useless and not as pretty as a small snack bag in the trash can.
That day, in the heavy rain, two homeless people were fighting over some rotten pears he had just picked up from a trash can, when a strange girl came.
She was very beautiful, and even though she was soaked all over and her long hair was stuck to her cheeks and neck by the rain, he was stunned at first sight.
At that time, he didn't know the word "stunning", he just knew that she was very beautiful.
She helped him beat the two homeless men fiercely, and also helped me pick up the pears scattered on the ground.
At that moment, I thought the pears with a rotten hole were so beautiful.
Just because it is held in a slender little hand.
The reason why the girl was strange was that she was crying in the heavy rain, but she insisted that it was rain, not tears.
But he clearly saw the drops of water sliding out from the corners of her eyes.
She lied.
Another thing is that she herself was a stray dog, but she said she wanted to adopt him.
He was used to being alone and he didn't want to go with her.
Although deep down in his heart, he actually wanted to see her again, and even hoped to watch her quietly.
But he knew that he was not worthy, not worthy of paying attention to such a beautiful woman.
Later, under her insistence, he went back home with her.
It was a small rental suite with two bedrooms and a living room. There was a tenant in the room next door, but he moved out.