Chapter 1729 Do you want my life
"Don't show me." Jing Xiu was very tired, "It's just a little money."
"It's your money too, not mine." Luo Yunli bit his lip, "I will write down every amount of money spent now, and I will return it to you in the future."
"Yun Li." Jing Xiu didn't continue the topic, he suddenly called her.
"Um?"
"Do you love me?" Jing Xiu's voice was very soft and tired.
"What's the matter with you." Luo Yunli looked at Jing Xiu with strange eyes, "Why do you ask this question suddenly? Don't you know whether I love you or not? I thought this was the only question we didn't need to ask anymore !"
Jing Xiu looked up at her, "The cause of my illness has never been found out, and I don't know how long I can last. Maybe one time, when there are no medical staff around, I have a heart attack and I will die."
"No, no, you are not allowed to say that, no, definitely not!" Luo Yunli immediately hugged him and cried, "Don't do this, you really will be fine!"
Jing Xiu smiled, "Originally, I thought, finish the company's work as soon as possible, and then marry you, and we will go back to the Tibetan area and live there... If my parents still don't forgive me, I will marry you every year." Take some time to go home and visit them, and the rest of the time to stay with you in Tibetan areas, to teach, or to be a Tibetan doctor. If they forgive me, I will take you to go home often... If we have After having a child, my parents must be more soft-hearted... "
"..." Luo Yunli bit his lip and looked at Jing Xiu, "Why are you talking about this all of a sudden?"
Jing Xiu smiled, reached out and stroked Luo Yunli's face, "I really want to spend the rest of my life with you, be it poor or rich, I don't like life in big cities, and I don't like the intrigue in the city, I have no ambition, I don't have any goals, I just want to live a life in the mountains and rivers, and do my best to help those in need."
Luo Yunli didn't know how to answer.
"Wunli, you like cities very much, don't you?"
"I... I don't... I like you... Wherever you are, I will be there!" Luo Yunli bit his lips, "You like to live a life close to nature, we live in Tibetan areas, and I will follow you wherever you want Just... I think we should also think about our children. If we have a child, he will receive education in a big city, and he will have more opportunities to choose in the future. If he follows us in Tibetan areas, he will not be able to get in touch with a developed society His vision will be narrowed... That will limit his life. At least let him make a choice after being exposed to prosperity, otherwise I worry that he will regret it and resent him."
Jing Xiu was silent for a while, "I don't want a child."
"Ah?" Luo Yunli's eyes widened, "Why...why?"
"There's no reason, I just haven't considered having a child." Jing Xiu said softly, "I'm afraid I won't be a good father, I'm afraid I won't be able to bear the responsibility. If I give birth to him, I won't be able to raise him or teach him well. For him, it would be better not to give birth to him from the beginning."
Luo Yunli was silent.
Jing Xiu looked at her, "I'm sorry Yun Li, we haven't talked about this issue before. It can be seen that you like children very much and want to have children of your own, but I can't. I can help those children, but I really Not ready to be a father, and probably never will be. I may really, never be a father."
"No... no, it's not like this..." Luo Yunli's expression was very tangled, "You are so kind and caring, and you are also very patient with the children. You will definitely be a good father."
"It's not the same." Jing Xiu shook his head, "I can't confirm that I can take on this responsibility, and I don't want my children to resent. An irresponsible father is a disaster for children."
"But… "
"Yun Li, the money on my card should be enough for you to study and live in S City. You can go to university, learn anything you want, and do whatever you want." Jing Xiu said softly, "You can have a more exciting life."
"You... what do you mean?" Luo Yunli looked at Jing Xiu in horror, holding Jing Xiu's arm tightly with both hands, "Ah Xiu, you you you... what are you going to do, don't scare me, why suddenly Say something like that, Ash!"
Jing Xiu looked at her, stretched out his hand reluctantly, and caressed her face, "Yun Li, can my illness be cured?"
"...Yes, definitely!" Luo Yunli held his hand on her cheek tightly, "The cause will definitely be found, and it will definitely be cured. You can't be so negative."
"No, I'm asking you." Jing Xiu looked at her, "When will my illness recover?"
"..." Luo Yunli blinked his eyes in a daze, "I... I am not a doctor, but the doctor will definitely find the cause of the disease quickly and heal you quickly..."
"Will it be better tomorrow?" Jing Xiu asked, "or the day after tomorrow?"
"Axiu, you...you..."
"Yunli, I am very grateful for everything you gave for me and Yaoyao, and I will never forget it." Jing Xiu said softly, "I really like you too, love you, you are so kind... I swear to give you happiness, I swear everything you want, I will give you!"
"Axiu..." Luo Yunli wept emotionally.
Jing Xiu smiled, "But now, I find that you are not happy with me, and I can't give you happiness."
"No, no, no, I am very happy, I am happy in everything I do when I am with you..."
"Yun Li, listen to me." Jing Xiu looked at her, "I thought I understood you, but in fact I don't understand you at all. I didn't know until now what you want."
"..."
"You don't have to force it. It's fate to be able to walk together for such a long time. I'm always grateful to you, really." Jing Xiu said lightly, "I thought I could give you everything, but in fact, I can't. For example, I can give you marriage , but I can't give you a child; I can give you love, but I can't give you life... "
"I don't want children, and I don't want your life, I just want you!"
"All the money on the card will be transferred to your account name, and the apartment you bought a few days ago will allow you to settle down in S City. From now on, I can no longer accompany you." Jing Xiu said.
"Why! What's wrong with you!" Luo Yunli collapsed.
Jing Xiu looked at her, his eyes suddenly filled with deep disappointment: "Yun Li, I told you once, you can tell me directly what you want, and I will give it to you, even if it is My life! But why didn't you tell me?"
"Say... say what?"
"Yun Li, you are used to fighting for and getting what you want by yourself. But there are some things that you can't reach out for if I don't give them to you." Jing Xiu looked at her, "For example, my life."
Sorry for the lack of updates today and it’s too late. Brother Hu’s toothache happened twice a month again. It’s super painful. Half of his head hurts. The key is to go to the dentist. The dentist said that Brother Hu’s teeth are healthy ! Hey, taking painkillers doesn't work, Brother Hu wonders where the pain is...
Tomorrow will definitely be more enough, try to catch up on time, okay, thank you Nimeng
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