On the way back, Wen Xinya was very silent. The sparse neon lights outside the car window occasionally passed by the window and shone on her face, flickering. Her beautiful face was stained with the charming color of the night.
There are some things that she is unwilling to think deeply about, let alone explore, but that doesn't mean she is a fool. On the day of her coming-of-age ceremony, the jade flower that Xu Chenyu gave her was still lying in the most secret corner of her dressing table. After Si Yiyan came to see her at the military training base, Xu Chenyu's attitude changed, and Xu Chenyu's obvious hostility towards Si Yiyan today...
All this reminded her of one fact!
A fact that made it impossible for her to deceive herself any more and forced her to take it seriously and face it.
In fact, it seems quite natural when I think about it.
After all, Xu Chenyu treated her the same way in his previous life.
The reason why she had never accepted it was that Xu Chenyu's feelings for her were too complicated and heavy, mixed with sympathy, pity, gratitude, curiosity, pride, charity, companionship, and protectiveness. It was as heavy as a burden that she could not bear.
Since her rebirth, she and Xu Chenyu have not spent much time together. She thought that after a new start, Xu Chenyu's fate would have changed and he would naturally not fall in love with her again. However, she did not expect that after all the twists and turns, the result would still be the same.
This is probably fate.
However, no matter in the last life or this life, she was destined to be unable to respond to Xu Chenyu's feelings, and was destined to let down this man's love.
The car parked steadily in the dedicated parking space on the first floor of the apartment building. Si Yiyan tilted his head and said, "We're here!"
Wen Xinya was suddenly awakened from her daze and subconsciously looked at Si Yiyan: "What did you say?"
Si Yiyan unbuckled his seat belt, leaned over to help her unbuckle the seat belt that was tied to her body and said, "We're home!"
Wen Xinya finally reacted and said "Oh".
Si Yiyan got out of the car and opened the door for Wen Xinya. The two of them took the special elevator back to the apartment.
As soon as she entered the room, Wen Xinya kicked off her shoes, stepped on the cold floor, and sat down on the sofa as if she was completely powerless. She didn't know if she had drunk too much, but her head was dizzy and her heart was depressed.
Si Yiyan turned around and went to the kitchen, and quickly brought over a glass of honey water: "Drink a glass of honey water to sober you up."
Wen Xinya took the honey water and drank it all.
"Are you feeling better?" Si Yiyan sat beside her, looking at her slightly flushed cheeks and her beautiful eyebrows tightly furrowed. His expression changed slightly. She didn't drink much tonight.
A cup of honey water didn't make her feel much better, but Wen Xinya still nodded: "Don't worry, I'm much better!"
She knew that she felt uncomfortable not because of the alcohol, but because of Xu Chenyu.
Si Yiyan didn't say much, just said: "I'll go get you some bath water, take a bath and relax!"
Wen Xinya said "hmm", then raised her eyes and asked: "Si Yiyan, you..."
When the words came to her lips, Wen Xinya paused suddenly.
Si Yiyan must have known about it a long time ago. Xu Chenyu and Si Yiyan were at loggerheads with each other at the party, and her friends looked at her with strange eyes from time to time. It was so obvious that only a fool could fail to notice it.
In fact, as early as the day of her coming-of-age ceremony, when she received the gift from Xu Er, she had a vague premonition in her heart, but she hoped to maintain a friendship with Xu Er based on mutual trust and pure feelings, so she did not think too much about it.
Si Yiyan reached out and took the glass from her hand, and asked with a low smile: "What do you want to say?"
Si Yiyan already had a premonition from the way she seemed to be hesitant to speak.
Wen Xinya rubbed her forehead and suddenly cried out: "I want to say... I have a headache..."
This kind of thing is really a headache. Thinking of Xu Chenyu's behavior after Si Yiyan came to see her at the military training base, she couldn't help but hit her head hard. It was so obvious, but she could still deceive herself into thinking that Xu Chenyu was angry because he knew that he was in love but didn't tell her.
Wen Xinya, how stupid are you!
Thinking of Xu Chenyu’s bad temper and gloomy face during that period, he must have been in a lot of pain!
Not only did she fail to understand his pain, but she was always hanging around him. No wonder he couldn't wait to escape as soon as the military training was over. It was not because of any urgent mission, but to escape from her.
Wen Xinya's face was not very good. She didn't want any rift to arise between her and Xu Chenyu because of emotional issues, and she didn't want them to drift apart because of it.
Si Yiyan's eyes flickered, and he pulled her into his arms, rubbing her forehead considerately: "Maybe you drank too much, let me rub it for you."
Everyone has a bottom line that others cannot touch and secrets that are difficult to tell. She is unwilling to tell, she does not want to tell, and he will not explore or ask.
Today at the party, Xinya's behavior has already revealed her heart. There is no need for him to let his ridiculous jealousy affect their relationship. Even if a man is jealous, he should keep it in his heart, be patient, and explore the uneasiness and doubts in his heart bit by bit.
The swelling pain in her brain was relieved, Wen Xinya felt relaxed, and she called out softly, "Si Yiyan?"
"Um?"
Wen Xinya purred softly, "I love you!"
Si Yiyan paused as he massaged her head, then continued: "I know!"
Wen Xinya closed her eyes and leaned in Si Yiyan's arms, with a faint smile on her lips.
Men are always more sensitive than women in this kind of things. Men are born with a strong sense of territory and are naturally repelled by all species that covet their property. How could a smart man like Si Yiyan not guess this
However, even so, she did not want to tell Si Yiyan about Xu Chenyu's feelings for her. It was not because she was afraid that Si Yiyan would misunderstand and become jealous, but because she wanted to leave Xu Chenyu with the dignity of a man in front of Si Yiyan.
At the same time, Xu Chenyu did not express his feelings to her, which proved that Xu Chenyu chose to bury this feeling deep in his heart for the time being. Even if she knew it in her heart, she had to choose to respect Xu Chenyu. After all, she and Si Yiyan were in love with each other now. No matter how she revealed it, it would be an insult to Xu Chenyu.
Furthermore, she didn't want to tell anyone about this matter, because she knew that once she revealed it, the rift between her and Xu Chenyu would grow bigger and bigger, and they would eventually drift apart. She was willing to bury this not-so-secret secret deep in her heart, give Xu Chenyu enough time, believe in him, trust him, and accompany him... to get out of the quagmire of this relationship.
Xu Chenyu is such a proud person, she believes that he can do it.