Hearing the noise around her, Qin Qian subconsciously looked up alertly. When she saw Cheng Ran, she was obviously caught off guard and her hand that was wiping her face trembled.
She quickly turned her head away, looking at the road, the trees, and the flowers, but she ignored the person sitting next to her, as if the person didn't exist.
From the profile of her face, Cheng Ran could see that although her tears had stopped, there were still traces of crying on her face, with some stains and some red, and her eyelashes trembling slightly, just like her confused mood.
Qin Qian was really shocked, and immediately felt extremely embarrassed. She didn't know how long Cheng Ran had seen her, or even if he had seen everything that just happened... The most important thing was that she would rather face her "enemies" at ordinary times, such as the very annoying Zhang Duanqing and Wei Xiao, than let Cheng Ran see what she had just seen. It was hard to say why, but she was stubborn in her heart. She would rather show him her arrogant side, with only her back, than let him see her side that was neither noble nor beautiful.
She still remembered that she invited many people to her birthday party, dozens of friends, and booked eight tables at the Jinjiang Hotel. She actually thought that he would know about her birthday party, but she didn't invite him. He should know how she felt about him...
She couldn't explain why she did this, but she felt that he would be disappointed and feel neglected... Thinking of his usual calmness, she felt a little bit of revengeful pleasure...
If possible, she would rather ignore him forever, be indifferent and contemptuous to him forever, and let him remember her actions for the rest of his life.
But now, such a person happened to be sitting next to him.
But there are so many unspeakable embarrassments between the two of them.
It happened that during the debate against Sun Xiao, the sunlight that day was perhaps too strong, and his appearance, his thoughts, and his words were so dazzling.
"I've heard about your family's affairs, so those are all true... Your father worked for Fulong, but was retaliated by Beituo, and the underworld came to collect debts..." Cheng Ran asked.
Qin Qian was startled, then nodded. She was wearing a tight-fitting woolen sweater underneath her thin coat, revealing her curvy figure. Her shorts were open, and her legs, which had made countless boys' blood boil on the stage, were now wrapped in black cotton socks, tight and slender. Her calves were close together, and her kneecaps protruded slightly in the black socks. There was a saying in dance that this was very suitable for dancing, and with years of leg stretching exercises, her calves were slender, her knee ligaments were lifted, her kneecaps looked delicate and graceful, and her legs looked very nice.
She looked fine when she was sitting, but if she stood up, her straight legs, swan neck, and upright back would be a perfect blend, making her even more pleasing to the eye.
She was touched and whispered, "You know everything..." There was a hint of weakness in her voice. In fact, she was very vulnerable now. Even though she could still keep her composure in front of Cheng Ran at first, when Cheng Ran spoke like this, all her disguises were shattered.
"So what are you thinking about?" Cheng Ran's tone suddenly became fierce in the next sentence, "There are problems at home, so you just give up? You don't care anymore... What are you looking for? Looking for a man? When your father could protect you, you lay safely under the soft feather wings of your comfort zone. You were a princess who grew up under the protection of the feather wings. You were greedy for your comfort zone. Once you have to leave your comfort zone, you panic and desperately look for a life-saving straw."
Qin Qian was stunned. She didn't expect that Cheng Ran, who was always gentle, would show her the same look he showed to Sun Xiao in the classroom at this time.
It was like many sharp blades were pulling through my heart. I couldn't feel the consequences immediately, but I could already sense a slight chill in my heart.
Her slightly swollen eye circles were once again filled with moisture, and her chest heaved rapidly. She looked at Cheng Ran with an unprecedented look.
But Cheng Ran was not satisfied at all. "You are very beautiful and popular. Some people may feel vain about this, but this is not the case for you who have been the center of attention since childhood. So when faced with the harassment of those suitors, you can't bear it and feel that your comfort zone has been compressed to the greatest extent. So you found a lifeline, Guo Yi."
Qin Qian's eyes widened gradually, as if she was shocked at how he could say that.
"Because of Guo Yi, you think you have the best conditions and the most control. Then you get used to the comfort zone of having a boyfriend to protect you... Then something happened in your family, and you found that the family wings that have always protected you are gone, and you are no longer safe, so you are confused and you want to rely on others. Guo Yi becomes your target again. You rely on him and need a crutch, even if it is a false comfort and security. You want to be protected by others. You are useless!"
Qin Qian bit her lips, hot tears falling down, listening to Cheng Ran in front of her saying words that would have made her break off the friendship if anyone else had said them to her in the past.
But Cheng Ran's words were as sharp as a knife, staring into her eyes without giving an inch, "What are you thinking about? You fantasize that Guo Yi can protect you... What else are you thinking about, someone to rely on, do you want to be kept, or I will keep you, I'm very rich... Your father's company will go bankrupt at worst, I will keep you, as long as you are willing to pay the price of ruining your studies and future, do you mind getting pregnant in high school and giving birth to a child for me before graduation... This way you can ensure a stable position..."
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"Stop talking, what are you talking about, Cheng Ran, stop talking! Cheng Ran!"
Qin Qian burst into tears and waved her hand towards Cheng Ran, but Cheng Ran raised his hand to block her.
There was a crisp snapping sound, and Cheng Ran's hand turned red. But in fact, Cheng Ran didn't feel much pain, it was just a loud sound.
But seeing her tearful look and her eagerness to eat him alive, Cheng Ran softened his tone a little, "So I said you are used to the safe zone, used to relying on others. Yes, you are really good at dancing, and you are very talented in this area, but this is also a talent supported by your family, and it is the result of your parents sending you to relevant institutions for years of training. In fact, these skills may be useful for dancing in school and winning a few awards, but if you want to make a living in the professional field, it is far from enough."
"Your talent is just a vase, beautiful on the surface. Once the vase is broken, it will be empty. But one thing must be admitted, dancing is very hard. Since you have been able to persist in it for so long, why don't you use this persistence to fight against the misfortunes in life? Why do you have to compromise? Why do you need crutches and support? Can't you rely on yourself?"
It was the first time she heard someone call her a vase, the first time she heard someone say so unscrupulously that she was just relying on a man, and the first time she heard someone say that he wanted to support her. She should have picked up the stool she was sitting on and smashed the man in front of her to death on the spot.
But she didn't do that. Instead, she felt an empty heart, yet a sense of vastness after being released from extreme repression.
Under Cheng Ran's merciless whipping, Qin Qian sobbed and her chest heaved violently, but her hands were stubborn enough to keep wiping away her tears. Her eyes and nose were red at this time, and she stared at Cheng Ran with hatred.
But it seemed that Cheng Ran's words enlightened Qin Qian. After a while, Qin Qian wiped away most of her tears and calmed down a lot. She said with a twitch in her nose, "Cheng Ran, I really want to bite you, hit you, kick you, and shove you now... But you... are right. Maybe it's true. I have always been greedy for my comfort zone. When something happens, the first thing I think of is to find a crutch... But I think, if I don't do this, what else can I do? Although I am a level 13 Chinese dancer, without my parents, I can't even pay for my dance tuition. Just like my family is like this now, if my family has a lot of debts in the future, I may not be able to do well even if I go out to work... I am just a person who is protected in the ivory tower of the school and under the wings of my family. If I go out to find something to do in this society, I will fail miserably..."
After a pause, she clenched her fists and said, "Am I really so useless..."
"Not really." Cheng Ran shook his head.
Qin Qian raised her head, slightly surprised.
"You do it again. You start to deny yourself before you even do anything. That's why you are still so weak, unconfident and useless."
"I'm warning you, although what you said is right, if you say that to me again, I... I will really kick you... I've been practicing dancing since I was a child, and it hurts when I kick people." Qin Qian's eyes flickered, and she moved her long legs in black socks and said solemnly. After a pause, she said, "But, I don't have the chance to do such a thing..."
Cheng Ran thought about it, took out Jiang Zhou's business card from his pocket, and placed it on the space in front of the bench between the two of them.
Qin Qian picked it up and saw the words on it. She covered her mouth with one hand, "Tianxing Dojo, manager... Jiang Zhou!?"
"There are opportunities. In fact, opportunities in this world have never been blocked for a person. I know this person. If you go to him, he can arrange a part-time job for you. You can try it and take the first step out of your comfort zone to build up your confidence. Just see if you can do something well. Of course, you are still a student, and studying is the most important thing. This can be regarded as a social practice."
"Really?" Qin Qian was holding the business card with expectations in her eyes. The Tianxing Dojo was located on Biancheng Street in the past of No. 10 Middle School. Everyone in No. 10 Middle School knew about it. In fact, with the current reputation of the dojo in Chengdu, probably nine out of ten young people knew about it.
"You said you are my classmate, so others have to consider your situation. Whether you can work part-time in the end depends on you." Cheng Ran said.
Qin Qian put away the business card and nodded, "Okay, I understand. I'll consider it."
Cheng Ran looked at her and said, "I know your family is in a difficult situation right now. I roughly know what the situation is like, but if you want to change the situation, you have to change yourself, right? If your parents can't see the future, then you should let them see that you are their future."
Qin Qian thought about it, then nodded gently, looking at him, "Thank you." After a pause, she continued, "You are now and you were facing that authoritative expert Sun Xiao in the lecture hall that day... It seems."
"It was me." Cheng Ran didn't know whether to laugh or cry.
But Cheng Ran immediately said seriously, "It should be that the underworld is also looking for trouble with your family. How did they set a trap for your father and blackmail you for loan sharking... Can you tell me the details?"
Qin Qian was stunned for a moment, "I never said there was a gang..."
Cheng Ran said, "This matter is not a secret anymore."
Qin Qian hesitated for a moment, and whispered, "Cheng Ran... please don't ask about these things... I promise you, I will cheer up and work hard to do something to prove myself. But don't ask about those people and our family's affairs... Most people don't even have time to hide. The more they know, the more harm they are doing to you..."
"That's something that ordinary people can't afford to offend..."
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