As the gunner of the Narwhal, Lily once went on adventures at sea with Charles. They went to many places, encountered various crises and faced various monsters.
But no matter how dangerous or terrifying it was, she had never felt so powerless.
She would rather face those gods. At least in that case, she would have a small chance of escaping. At worst, she could die or go completely crazy.
Instead of being like now, facing a group of twisted humanoid monsters that cannot be killed or destroyed.
All the crew members on the ship rushed forward madly and were killed by Lily's sunlight, and then the next cycle started again.
They are intelligent, and with repeated practice, the crew members gradually began to adapt to Lily's attack methods and responded to them in a tacit understanding with each other.
If Lily wasn't so much stronger than them, they might have succeeded long ago.
Although these things are disgusting and scary, Lily's crisis lies elsewhere.
This cyclical environment not only changes them, but also erodes Lily.
There was an unknown amount of time in the cycle, with completely distorted companions outside and this depressing and dim environment.
All of this condensed into a powerful self-destructive emotion that enveloped Lily's heart.
The crew has experimented and found that suicide cannot solve any problem. The dead will wake up in the next cycle.
When this intense self-destructive emotion could not be vented, it began to rot and deteriorate in this endless cycle, gradually covering Lily's crumbling outlook on life and values.
Terrible thoughts that Lily had never thought of began to occupy her mind, and her body began to tremble involuntarily with fear.
"Ahhh!!" Suddenly Lily screamed with all her strength, and she was enveloped by light and rushed into the air and into the darkness.
At this moment she regretted it. She missed her parents and wanted to go back to her warm home.
Lily turned into a ray of light and streaked through the air, but it was all in vain.
When 40 minutes were up, Lily returned to the deck again and faced the monsters in front of her again.
Lily, who once seemed always cheerful, now had lost all the light in her eyes, like a pool of stagnant water.
"This woman can't hold on any longer! She can't hold on any longer!! Hahahaha!!"
Looking at Lily's shaky appearance, the excited Captain Kraus was the first to laugh excitedly.
Lily, with fear on her face, gradually curled up into a ball and began to fall into autism. The soft light formed a light egg.
The crew members gathered around and began to lick the bare balls frantically, shouting all kinds of obscenities into them.
Lily didn't know how long it would take for her to become like these monsters, one year, two years, or maybe ten years.
It seemed that no matter how long it took, her final fate was already determined.
"Is there no other way?"
Lily's body was twitching. She looked like she was crying, but now she had no tears left.
The past cycles had completely rendered her only way of venting her emotions completely ineffective.
The cycle continues. Lily puts herself into the light ball every time. However, the outer wall of the light ball is getting thinner as time goes by.
"Mr. Charles!!" Lily in the egg shouted desperately with her last bit of struggle.
But as time went by, Lily found that her longing for Charles was also changing.
She was gradually becoming another person, a Lily who was just like the people outside.
"Is everything over?" Lily thought to herself.
“If Mr. Charles were in this situation, what would he do?”
"But what's the use of this? In this situation, is there anything I can do to resist this change? How is this possible?"
Lily in the light ball slowly sat up and began to make a final effort with her remaining willpower.
She searched the bag around her waist carefully, but still couldn't find anything that could help.
Just as Lily was desperately searching numbly over and over again, a rectangular, round bottle fell out of her collar and swayed gently in front of her chest.
Lily remembered this bottle. It was given to her by Linda, the ship's doctor, before she left.
She said they could drink it if they wanted, and that the potion would bring back good memories.
The potion inside was almost gone, and when she returned to the plane, Lily couldn't help but drink a lot.
She uncorked the bottle, raised her head and poured the liquid into her mouth.
The last bit of liquid in the bottle slowly slid down the smooth bottle wall and into her mouth.
The moment the potion entered her mouth, Lily suddenly remembered, and all the feelings that were corroded by the endless cycle came back!
She thought back to the days when she had gone on adventures with everyone, and her ideals that had been corroded by loneliness and boredom were quickly recovering.
The dead heart of desperate Lily quickly broke apart. Her heart began to revive.
But this feeling stopped halfway because a new cycle began again.
Ignoring the crew members staring at her eagerly, Lily, shaking with excitement, quickly reached into her clothes and searched.
She took out the rectangular bottle that carried her body temperature again. The little liquid left inside was shaking gently, and the potion she drank in the last reincarnation returned again.
After being in this desperate cycle for so many years, Lily smiled for the first time. Her smile was so happy and bright. She found a way to break this cycle.
The potion that Linda gave her is the key. With this potion, she will be fundamentally different from the monsters outside!
Lily drank it again without saying a word, and that wonderful feeling came back again. She felt that everyone who had left was now by her side.
In each cycle, Lily will drink the potion as soon as possible.
Over and over again, Lily felt her true self coming back. "I can hold on! I can do it!!"
The cycle continues, only this time no one is keeping track of the time.
It has been ten or twenty years, and everyone on the ship has completely stopped caring.
When the crew saw that Lily, who was about to collapse, had returned to normal, they became angry and started cursing wildly.
They are very angry that the opportunity to relieve boredom that they finally found is gone. But this anger will eventually subside as the cycle continues.
Seeing that Lily did not become like them, the crew members finally got bored and started doing other things.
I don’t know how long it was, but suddenly the cycle stopped.
After realizing this, Lily felt very complicated. She didn't even know what expression to use to face this situation.
Having stayed in that loop for too long, she felt very unfamiliar with the real world she suddenly returned to.
And when the crew members discovered this, ecstasy appeared on everyone's face.
"We're out! We're finally out! Hurry! Hurry!!"
Everyone drew their weapons as quickly as possible and pulled the trigger at their heads.
(End of this chapter)