Chen Qingxuan felt baffled and sad, and wanted to take off the long gown on his body. But he still didn't take it off, and sat stiffly in front of the window, watching Meiya busy back and forth in the courtyard.
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The fourth day of May in the thirty-three year period of Jiasheng
Chenjiatun.
Yesterday I finally cleaned up all the land in the house. On this day, it was rare for Chen Qingxuan and Grandma Chen to sleep late. It's just that Meiya woke up early in the morning. Carrying a bamboo basket, he left the courtyard gate.
Tomorrow is the Dragon Boat Festival, and we have to prepare reed leaves in advance to make rice dumplings, and Mei Ya walks along the big river. The sky was still gray, there was no one on the road, and there was no sound except for the chirping of insects.
Meiya had never gone down the mountain so early. Especially when it's still gray like this. Meiya is not a bold person. In order to strengthen her courage, Meiya hummed a little song: "The peach leaves are pointed up. The willow leaves cover the sky. Ming Ai who is in his position. Listen to me carefully. , this happened at the Jingxi Blue Indigo Factory. There is a Song Laosan in the firearms camp of the Blue Indigo Factory... "
Just singing and singing, Meiya couldn't go on singing. She reached out to wipe her wet eyes, and while cursing herself for being worthless, she squatted down slowly by the river. "Whooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo" and started crying.
She really misses Zhong Mingwei. During these three days at Chen Qingxuan's house, she really couldn't eat well or sleep well. It was the same in the past, but she used to think about Zhong Mingwei, and now she also thinks about it, but she is more afraid. She was afraid that Zhong Mingwei would not want her anymore, she was afraid that Zhong Mingwei would finally wake up and find that she had always been an ugly girl with a disfigured appearance, and now that the former beautiful wife was by her side, there was no possibility of her being an ugly girl. It's definitely not as good as Xiao An's, and she knows that Xiao An and Zhong Mingwei have always been a couple, but, but she just misses Zhong Mingwei.
In the past three days, she has always been looking forward to Zhong Mingwei's coming to pick her up, but she is also afraid that Zhong Mingwei will pick her up. After suffering so much until now, Meiya is really going to collapse. Except for the time when she was ill, she has never had a relationship with Zhong Mingwei. It's been so long since we've been apart, and even though we were separated before, our hearts are sweet and we have hope, but what about now? Day by day, she became more emaciated day by day. From the initial resentment and complaint to the cowardly expectation now, Meiya knew that she was becoming more and more pitiful and humble, even despicable, but what could she do? ? In the relationship between her and Zhong Mingwei, Zhong Mingwei has always been the leader, she is like the water plants in this river, docilely flowing with the river...
Meiya stared blankly at the flowing river, at her increasingly clear reflection on the water, and gradually stopped crying. She looked at the disheveled self on the water, then put down the bamboo basket in a hurry, and stared at the river. Pulling her hair, she took off the silk at the end of the hair, and then tried to put all the messy hair into the braid. She braided the braid quickly, but the faster she braided, the more mistakes she made. She was scattered and re-weaved, but when she was halfway through the weaving, she stopped suddenly, then hugged her knees and cried again, shaking her hands, the goose-yellow silk fell on the river, followed by The river flows slowly into the distance.
"Zhong Mingwei, do you think this hair rope looks good? In the past, the daughters of the grand palace in Yanxi Palace all had hair ropes of this color and color. I was greedy. I saw it at the market that day, but it made me so happy. Hehe, really It looks good no matter how you look at it."
"You also like this hair rope, don't you? Isn't it very beautiful?"
"You look good when you wear it, girl, you really look good when you're born."
"If you say this once, it's enough. Don't keep talking nonsense... Zhong Mingwei, don't keep saying that. If you talk too much, I think I'm really pretty..."
"It's not nonsense, it's true. In my eyes, there is no more beautiful girl than you."
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Meiya believes that Zhong Mingwei likes her, and really thinks she is good-looking, at least at that time, at least before Xiao An's was in Ninggu Pagoda, but she also knew early on that there were other people around Zhong Mingwei, it was true. She knew it early in the morning, so why did she bother to care about resentment again and again
She had warned herself early in the morning not to blame Zhong Mingwei today for what happened in his years and months, but she really couldn't do it.