Cui Jinbai fled from Bu Mansion, clenched his fists, unable to calm his pounding heart, and looked pale.
He... he actually had feelings for a boy!
This realization made him feel self-loathing and self-hate.
It was obvious that he and Bu Shulin were just taking advantage of each other's needs. Bu Shulin used him as an excuse not to marry the princess, and he used Bu Shulin as an excuse to escape from home and make a fuss about his marriage.
He lost his mother when he was young. His father was a decent man. After waiting for his mother for three years, he accepted his family's arrangement and married the daughter of a minor official as his second wife.
In the first two years, his stepmother was particularly attentive and kind to him, and he once thought that his family would always be so warm. Until his stepmother's eldest son was born, everything changed. She looked at him more and more distant and cold. He always felt a little uncomfortable, but also felt that it was reasonable. He thought that if he was a good brother, the family would be happy on the surface.
But he never expected that his stepmother, who had once cared for him wholeheartedly, would be so cruel as to lose him.
From then on, he knew that there was a conflict of interest between him and his stepmother. Since ancient times, the eldest son has been the pillar of the family, occupying seven-tenths of his father's family property and connections, all of which the stepmother wanted to seize for her own son.
When he reached the marriageable age, his stepmother deliberately wanted to marry her daughter to him. Unfortunately, his stepmother's family was of low status, and she was able to marry into the Cui family as a second wife because his father valued her humble background and did not feel wronged or have any ambitions.
For this reason, she kept spreading rumors outside, and all the noble ladies in the clan who were introduced to him were corrupted by her. Later, he simply watched her torment himself and did not want to marry a girl to compete with her. Anyway, he was Erlang and could afford to waste time. If he did not get married, his younger brother, who was four years younger than him, would not be able to get married either.
Later, she would invite girls from her own family to stay in her house from time to time. Then Bu Shulin became entangled with him. When the news got out, those who had tried their best to meet her in the past were frightened and left home within two days.
Because his stepmother's brothers and sisters were implicated in this matter, he felt an indescribable sense of relief. His stepmother seized this handle to arrange his marriage early, but the legitimate daughters from her mother's family were unwilling. She even dared to ask her father to marry him to the illegitimate daughter from her mother's family, but was scolded by her father.
It didn't matter to him if he never got married, so he was happy to act with Bu Shulin. At least he could see his stepmother and father worrying about this, which helped him relieve the depression that had accumulated in his heart.
But he never thought that he would really fall in love with a man.
Bu Shulin was unaware of Cui Jinbai's entanglement and pain. After Cui Jinbai left, she made a fuss for a while and then fell asleep exhausted.
"Oh oh, Cui Shitou is hiding from me!" Bu Shulin had no recollection of what she had done after getting drunk. In the past two days, she went to look for Cui Jinbai as usual, but she found that Cui Jinbai was different from the past, making it impossible for her to stop him.
Once or twice is just a coincidence, but after it happens many times, Bu Shulin will notice it.
Shen Xihe just lowered his head and read a book, pretending not to hear anything.
"Yo Yo..." Bu Shulin asked with a long voice, looking worried, "Why did Cui Shitou hide from me?"
Shen Xihe still did not respond, turned a page of the book and continued reading.