As Lu Yisheng said, Chen Xian was indeed not angry. Although outsiders saw his emotional changes as "angry", in fact... Chen Xian was just a little flustered, because the topic they were talking about happened to be Chen Xian's most beloved topic. Topics to avoid.
Does Chen Xian have someone he likes
It's hard to say, maybe only he knows it.
Then change the question.
Does Chen Xian have anyone who wants to grow old with his face
This really doesn't exist.
Because Chen Xian once thought about this problem, which is an important part of the so-called human genetic inheritance.
reproduce.
Will I also find a girlfriend in the future
Then get married, have children, and live the life that most human beings should have.
But can I really do this
Chen Xian was extremely skeptical about this.
Especially after the age of twenty-three, he no longer has any interest in such things as "marriage and having children". It's not that he doesn't want to spend his whole life with others, it's just because he discovered something in himself. This characteristic... This characteristic is the dream that many human beings want to pursue all their lives.
back inside.
Chen Xian sat on the edge of the bed in silence for a long time, perhaps touched by Lu Yisheng's words, his mood had never been so complicated... He didn't know what he was thinking, he just felt that all the thoughts in his brain were entangled Together, like a ball of yarn tied in a knot, they can't be straightened out at all.
Chen Xian once thought that it would be the best choice to live his life alone, but in the process he met Mu He, Lu Yisheng, Xu Yanan, Li Daosheng...they were like ups and downs on the life line, In a sense, Chen Xian has been deeply affected, and precisely because of their existence, Chen Xian doesn't want to find a partner anymore, and getting married is getting farther and farther away for him.
"I almost forgot about it..."
Chen Xian walked to the bedside table with a complicated expression and opened the drawer, took out a slightly old-looking photo album from it, and habitually skipped the pages with grandpa's photos on it, and slowly flipped through the pages. I took the next photo...
twenty years old.
twenty one years old.
twenty-two years old.
Twenty-three…
Every year on his birthday, Chen Xian would always follow his grandfather's habit of taking a photo in the yard by himself, but... Before he was twenty, Chen Xian in every photo had significant changes , it seems that she has become more and more mature, and her facial features have become more handsome or stretched out, but after the age of twenty, until now.
His appearance had hardly changed.
in other words.
Chen Xian's natural ability is almost immortal self-healing power, and this self-healing power is repairing his body all the time, keeping his internal organs, limbs and bones in the best condition every second, and aging It is impossible for such a thing as degeneration to happen to him... His growth (aging) changes were only before the age of twenty. Ten-year-old appearance... Does this seem to be no different from the immortality in myths and legends
Will not grow old, will not die.
Chen Xian didn't know how long he would maintain this state, it might be decades or even hundreds of years, or even longer...
The so-called longevity may be nothing more than that.
But this is not a good thing for Chen Xian, and he even thinks it is a curse, because his childhood experience has left a lot of shadows on him, and he doesn't want to live like this for a long time... just want to be like a Ordinary human beings live and die like that, and it is the best ending to swallow their last breath and leave this world when they deserve to die, but his self-healing power does not allow this to happen.
Before meeting Mu He, Chen Xian was often troubled by his self-healing power, especially when he was alone at home. He had no idea what the meaning of his life was. It might mean a lot to others, but to him...is this any different from a torment from which you can never escape
He likes to be alone.
But he was afraid of being alone.
People who are accustomed to loneliness are actually more afraid of loneliness than ordinary people. Chen Xian is a living example. If he is allowed to live alone for many years until the end of the years... then this world may be a living hell for Chen Xian .
However, this kind of trouble gradually disappeared after meeting Muhe, and even Chen Xian almost forgot that he still had this incurable "disease". After getting acquainted with Lu Yisheng, Xu Yanan and Li Daosheng walked into the My own life... Chen Xian almost regarded himself as an ordinary stranger.
Until today, Lu Yisheng mentioned this matter.
It took Chen Xian a moment to remember...
It turned out that he was still a "patient".
How many years can a stranger live
Chen Xian has roughly calculated that first-class aliens like Xu Yanan and Li Daosheng may live to be around 130 years old, and the longest will not exceed 150 years old, such as Lu Yisheng. They are shorter-lived, but definitely live longer than ordinary humans... But in Chen Xian's eyes, their lifespan is no different from that of insects, because Chen Xian knows how alive he is, and it may be possible to kill three generations of their family. It's all easy.
After decades or a hundred years, it is estimated that Chen Xian will have to send these old friends to their deaths one by one. Just thinking about this matter will make Chen Xian panic... He does not want to face this fact at all, because it Every friend is too important to Chen Xian. It can be seen from how much he usually takes care of the people around him. He cherishes everyone who walks into his life, especially after his grandfather left, let him face up to life and death The problem of parting is even more difficult.
Can't even deal with friends' problems, let alone the other half who grow old together
He is not old or dead, even if he lives for a thousand years, he will still have his current appearance, while the other half will experience aging and pain until he dies step by step... Chen Xian has never experienced what it feels like to see his lover suffer, but he can imagine that It must be much more uncomfortable than seeing your friends suffer, after all, that's how it's shown on TV.
"What should we do in the future... Shall we confess our problems to Lu Yisheng and the others... How will we get along with them when they get old... Shall we watch them die of old age..." Chen Xian muttered to himself, and the parasite also At this moment, it oozes from his body surface, wrapping around his arms like some thread-like substance, as if to appease his emotions, "Surely you can't stay in the Bureau of Secrets forever... you will be discovered... when will you leave?" Well... whether to go abroad or... "
Some things cannot be thought of, once thought of, troubles will follow.
Just like Chen Xian at this time.
After forgetting his "illness" for a short time, he lived happily every day, and he didn't want to think about the future, so he only focused on the present, but now... more and more "problems" came out of his brain , Chen Xian couldn't control it at all, and he didn't want to think about these headaches, but he just couldn't control it...
Chen Xian was scared.
Yes, he was afraid.
Because he suddenly realized that no matter how many friends he has around him and how happy they are every day, one day these will disappear... Those living friends will gradually turn into dust and disappear from this world, and his life will eventually return to being alone The current state, all of this is just a dream.
One day.
Time will take away everything you have.
Is there any way to keep everyone alive
Even if it sounds selfish to say this, Chen Xian also thinks so... He wants everyone around him to be with him, as long as he is not alone, he will not be afraid of anything, even if he is forced to live to the end of his life. He will not be afraid at the end of time. He has tasted what it is like to be lonely, so he doesn't want to go back, and he doesn't want to go back to the life that is shrouded in the shadow of loneliness all day long.
"Boss?"
Suddenly, a familiar voice broke the silence in the room, and Chen Xian couldn't help but come back to his senses. He raised his eyes and saw that the window had been pushed open, and Lu Yisheng and the others were standing by the window furtively. Half of the face is exposed... It's like a stack of blocks, the bottom one is the little one, and then Mu He, Xu Yanan, Mr. Skeleton, Yu Sheng, "piled up" one by one.
"What the hell are you doing..." Chen Xian looked at them helplessly.
"No... nothing... just worried about you..."
Lu Yisheng laughed dryly. Seeing that Chen Xian was in a good mood, he asked a question tentatively.
"Boss, have you ever been emotionally hurt... such as broken love or something..."
"Can you get out?"
Chen Xian resisted the urge to curse, but after saying this, he looked at the funny pile of building blocks with human heads outside the window, and finally burst out laughing uncontrollably.
He looked at Lu Yisheng dumbfounded, and threatened him angrily and amusingly.
"If you talk nonsense again, believe it or not, I'll hang you on a locust tree right now and give you a whipping?"
Hearing this, Lu Yisheng's face turned pale instantly.
"Boss, you have a strong taste... you actually like this tune... no wonder you can't find a partner!"