Lingli waved her hand, "No, I'm just asking, asking for advice."
Zi'an recalled that when they left yesterday, Su Qing was helped onto the carriage and left before them. Logically, Lingli would not have met him.
"What's going on between you and Su Qing? Don't you have him in your heart?" Zi'an asked.
Lingli thought of the kiss last night and her face immediately turned red. She rubbed her face with her hands and said, "Why do you suddenly ask this? Didn't I tell you? It's impossible for him and I to be together."
"There can only be one reason for the so-called impossibility, and that is that he is not in your heart."
Zi'an pulled away her hands that were rubbing her face vigorously, "Alright, it's no use rubbing anymore. Your face was already red before you rubbed it. What happened last night?"
Lingli sighed, "He said last night that he wanted to marry me."
"Kissed you, and then said he wanted to marry you?"
Otherwise I wouldn't ask her how it felt to kiss her.
Lingli nodded, "Yes."
Her face turned red again in embarrassment.
Zi'an burst out laughing, "Lingli, you actually have him in your heart."
"Nonsense!" Lingli denied it.
Zian looked at her, "If it was Wu Yanzu who kissed you last night, what would you have done?"
Lingli didn't think twice and said, "I slapped him and kicked him."
"Did you do this to Su Qing?"
Lingli was a little angry and said, "How can I be his opponent?"
"What if the person who kissed you was Ni Rong?"
Lingli was stunned for a moment, "I can't beat Ni Rong either."
"Su Qing kissed you and then told you that she would marry you. What did you do? What was your reaction?" Zi'an asked in a different way. Was it because she had followed the Night King for so many years but had not learned any of his sophistication and cunning, or was she just a blockhead
"What else can we say in this situation? Of course we should run," Lingli said.
"Run back to the palace in one breath?"
"Of course, who knows if he will catch up with me? I am no match for him, what can I do if he catches up with me?"
Zi'an sighed softly, "I am a woman. If someone I don't like forcefully kisses me, even if I can't beat him, I will call him a bastard or slap him without knowing my own limitations. But you just ran away, Lingli, what do you think happened? I asked you about your feelings for Su Qing before, and you were ambiguous. But at that time I could tell that you had feelings for Su Qing, but because of the past and your face, you think Su Qing would dislike you, right?"
"This face disgusts everyone who sees it. Even I sometimes feel terrified when I take off my skin." The smart voice carried a hint of suppressed sadness.
"You are not Su Qing, you can't represent his thoughts."
Lingli was silent for a moment, "Forget it, next time he comes, I will just hide."
"Why are you hiding? Can you hide forever?" Zi'an pushed her, "Go find Su Qing and explain it clearly. Tell him that you are his fiancée and you are engaged to him. Tell him that your face is like this now. If he accepts it, then he can accept it. If he doesn't, you can be relieved."
"No!" Lingli said stubbornly.
"Lingli, do you want to be with Su Qing?" Zi'an asked patiently.
"It's not a question of whether I want to or not, but it's impossible for us to be together." Lingli said, getting a little irritated. "Forget it, don't say it. You won't understand even if I say it."
Zi'an patted the back of her hand, "It's not that I don't understand, it's that you don't understand, Lingli. For some things, you can only know the final result by facing them. It doesn't matter if you belittle yourself, but don't waste your own happiness. Facing it is the best solution, anything, I mean anything."
Lingli seemed to be somewhat touched and stared at Zian in a daze.
"Princess, do you want me to go back for revenge?"
Zi'an shook his head. "I'm not asking you to go back for revenge. I can't make this decision for you, but if you can't let it go, at least go back and ask for an explanation."
"What can I say?" Lingli smiled sadly. "What can I say? Apart from killing people, what else can I say?"
Zi'an didn't say anything, just looked at her steadily.
If someone wants to kill you, why should you show mercy to that person? Lingli is actually afraid of that family from the bottom of her heart. Her strength is only for outsiders, because even if outsiders hurt her, they can only hurt her body but not her heart.
She was heartbroken by her father.
Lingli felt unhappy when talking about the past, and Zian also felt bad for her.
Although the nanny didn't know what was going on and the palace was suddenly shrouded in gloom, she was not afraid because she had a strong backer and she would go to this backer for any problems she couldn't resolve.
This time, she brought Lingli with her to find her backer.
Because she felt that no one could help Lingli except this person.
"Come in." Seeing Lingli standing outside and refusing to come in, the nanny couldn't help but urge her angrily.
"I'm not going!" Lingli turned around and wanted to leave, "I don't need to beg her."
"Now that you're here, maybe I can help you." The nanny advised earnestly.
"I'm fine."
"Are you okay? You've made the princess unhappy. She hasn't smiled since you talked yesterday." The nanny believed that anything that made the princess unhappy was a big deal because it was directly related to the baby in the princess' belly.
That's the top priority.
Lingli sighed, "Mammy, you used to be very rational, why are you so weird now?"
"Come in, come in quickly." The nanny pulled her in.
The two of them knelt in front of the Guanyin Bodhisattva in Fu'an Temple, and the nanny began to speak the words she had to say almost every day since she came to this belief, blessing whoever she wanted to bless.
Lingli knelt in front of the Bodhisattva. She didn't believe it because she felt that there were no gods in this world. Not only there were no gods in the world, but there were also no gods in heaven. If there were, why could those who did evil still be alive today
After praying to the Buddha, the nanny also drew a fortune for Lingli.
"Take it to the door. There is a fortune teller over there. He charges ten cents for the fortune. I'll go and add some incense money first." said the nanny.
Lingli walked out with the lottery ticket and threw it away without even looking at it.
If she hadn't been driven crazy by Nanny's nagging, she wouldn't have come to ask for divination.
There are many believers, and she sighed. In life, if there are problems that you are unable to solve yourself, can praying to God solve them
She walked around outside and saw a white-haired monk interpreting the divination lots under the banyan tree.
In front of the monk was an old table with a few books on it. The monk's place was deserted and no one came to interpret the fortune.
She looked around and saw that there was someone interpreting the fortune in the right corner. There were many people gathered there. It was a sharp contrast.
"Girl, do you want to interpret the fortune?" The white-haired monk called out to her with a kind smile.
Lingli looked around and saw no one else besides her, so she was sure that it was her that was called, so she waved her hands and said, "No, I don't know."
The white-haired monk smiled and said, "Young lady, since you have asked for the fortune, why are you still confused?"
Lingli looked back and saw that she could see the main entrance from this place, which meant that the monk probably saw her throwing away the fortune stick.
She said unhappily, "I don't believe it, so naturally I don't understand it."
(End of this chapter)