Countless eyes were looking at Zheng Ren from unknown places, either overtly or covertly, but he didn't feel it.
Life goes by the same, and the progress of the fourth stage of becoming famous all over the world accumulates bit by bit. Although it seems that there is not enough time to complete it now, from the perspective of acceleration, Zheng Ren is still full of confidence.
Time is like running water, day by day, month by month, year by year, never stopping.
Zheng Ren completed various surgeries without any trouble, while the lives of others were not so peaceful.
It has been nine months since Bu Ruotian's combined pancreaticoduodenectomy was completed. Three post-operative reexaminations found no signs of tumor tissue metastasis.
Normally this is a good thing, but Bu Ruotian always wonders whether the doctor and Bu Li colluded to conceal the test results; or they tampered with the test sheets to deceive themselves.
But he couldn't know the truth, so he was happy until the day he couldn't get out of bed. This day does not seem very far away.
This is a very confusing thing. There is a great horror between life and death. Very few people can really see through life and death.
Bu Ruotian is this kind of person.
In the past, he was strong and shrewd, but now he is only full of suspicion.
One day after the operation, he began to hear a voice talking in his ear, and the voice said whatever he was thinking.
That inexplicable existence is like someone who is proficient in the legendary mind-reading skill. He can "read" even Bu Ruotian's smallest thoughts.
Sometimes Bu Ruotian heard the "person" talking to him, and he didn't even remember the things he said. After thinking about it carefully, I realized what I was thinking just now.
This happens often, and that voice seems to know me better than myself.
Bu Ruotian was different from people like Dahuang Ya. He analyzed things calmly and carefully, and did not feel suspicious that the inexplicable "person" really existed.
Bu Ruotian knew clearly that he was suspicious.
But after a while, that "person" became more and more excessive. When dealing with company affairs, the "person" will make gesticulating comments in the ear.
"He" told Bu Ruotian what to do and what to do.
Bu Ruotian has also analyzed it carefully, and what "people" said makes sense, but most of the time it doesn't apply.
It is definitely not the legendary fairy who guides the way, pointing out a golden road for himself as if he is cheating.
Bu Ruotian wasn't so calm this time, he was getting more and more frightened, even a little frightened. Occasionally he would wonder if someone was really watching him.
It's just that mind-reading is really hard to understand.
As time went by, that "person" became more and more excessive. Especially after each physical examination, when looking at the medical examination form with nothing wrong with it, the "person" would loudly ridicule, saying that it was all a scam, but in fact he was already terminally ill.
After some time, Bu Ruotian discovered that the "person" seemed to be trying to seize his mind!
"He" may be in his own body, or he may be an existence in another dimension, wanting to be himself!
What the hell!
He could no longer keep his composure.
Bu Ruotian thought of many legends, among which the most "reasonable" explanation was to seize the body. The ghost lingers, seizing the body to be reborn. Not only does he want to share a body with himself, "he" also wants to seize control of this body.
Every time he thought of this, Bu Ruotian was extremely frightened.
He tried not to think about it, but the more he didn't think about it, the more things the "person" would nag in his ears.
Some of them are so old that even Bu Ruotian himself doesn't remember them. But when the "person" came and talked about it, he felt confused.
Unable to bear the torture, Bu Ruotian did not lose his mind. After a calm analysis, he decided to go to the hospital.
Haicheng? impossible. Bu Ruotian went directly to the Imperial Capital to find doctors from the neurology and psychiatry departments for treatment.
After a doctor's examination and consultation, he was diagnosed with paranoid schizophrenia.
The doctor said that "person" did not exist.
The so-called mind reading is a feeling of being exposed, which is what Bu Ruotian is subconsciously worried about. The doctor didn't make it too clear. He didn't say clearly that this was what Bu Ruotian was most afraid of, and he didn't dare to overly stimulate him.
And hearing that "person" commenting on one's condition and criticizing one's behavior is also a symptom, which is called commentary auditory hallucination.
As for seizing the body, it does not exist. It is a comprehensive manifestation of obsessive thinking and robbed thinking, and is also a symptom of paranoid schizophrenia.
Although Bu Ruotian didn't quite believe it, he didn't have a better explanation.
He prefers the doctor's scientific judgment. After all, even schizophrenia is better than having an inexplicable being trying to take away his body.
The doctor prescribed him medicine, olanzapine 5MG orally every day.
This is an effective drug for treating schizophrenia. The doctor also repeatedly told Bu Ruotian not to think about other things. In particular, an old doctor with academician level in the Department of Neurology said with certainty that the more you think about it, the faster you will die.
Wanting to survive implies a physical examination and solving problems if there are any. If there are no problems, live a good life and don't think about those messy things.
Bu Ruotian accepted this.
He even learned to meditate and try to empty himself out of random thoughts.
This did have some effect. Since taking medicine and meditating, the "person" spoke less and less, and Bu Ruotian also felt that his mood was gradually getting better.
During this year, Bu Ruotian suffered a huge blow to his body and mind, and Bu Ruotian was in urgent need of recovery. I don't believe the doctors in Haicheng and the provincial capital. Bu Ruotian has been living in the imperial capital in the past few months.
Being close to the best hospital and top medical care in the country, he felt at ease.
The company's affairs were left to Bu Li, and Bu Ruotian made a choice between life and money. Practicing meditation every day, Bu Ruotian seemed to feel a glimmer of the true meaning of life while staying away from the other person.
Is it really necessary to spend a lifetime of hard work and displacement? Until now, Bu Ruotian is worried about cracking down on gangsters and eradicating evil, and he has been targeted for special attacks.
Perhaps, this was also the trigger for his schizophrenia.
After spending nearly a month of leisurely vacation, Bu Ruotian opened his sleepy eyes one morning and looked at the sunshine and beach outside the window. He suddenly felt that something seemed different today.
My field of vision is much smaller and I can't see things clearly.
Trying hard to open his eyes, Bu Ruotian was shocked to find that he couldn't lift his eyelids.
He was shocked. Was his tumor recurring or had something else wrong with him
Subconsciously, Bu Ruotian put his hands on his eyelids and forced his eyes open. But after opening it, everything returned to normal, nothing special, as if it was just an illusion.