Xu Xilin's acuity was not measured by Dou Xun's long reflex arc - even if he made fourteen mistakes in cloze.
Dou Xun was reading a book describing male prostitutes and homosexuals in prison, and there was no problem with that. There were everything written in literature, so this book wasn't a novelty either.
The problem is that Dou Xun is secretly peeking.
That means he didn't take it as an ordinary idle book
Originally, Xu Xilin felt that there was a problem with him during this period of time, and when he found out about it, his nerves couldn't help being a little tense. He found that every time Dou Xun came home, he would bring a copy of "Entrusted Vocabulary xx", "IELTS Writing Example xx Example". Such things, open a look, either male-male novels or all kinds of homosexual research, the breadth of coverage and the depth of reading, Xu Xilin has no room to deceive himself.
At the beginning, Xu Xilin's mood was similar to that of accidentally turning to the "diagnosis report of terminal illness" from relatives and friends. The huge anxiety rushed into his heart and made him feel a little numb. But after the shock was over, he began to think about it - Dou Xun's unusual clinging, the look on his face when he saw him, his self-controlled temper, and the "accidents" that were easily brought up during occasional fights …
A somewhat unreal conclusion seems to be coming out.
Xu Xilin didn't have time to panic or get angry. He seemed to have discovered a Pandora's Box. His first reaction was to slap the board on it in a panic, and never let it show any gaps.
Because it's so ridiculous.
Taking ten thousand steps back, Xu Xilin had to weigh it carefully, even if Dou Xun was a girl, because Dou Xun was not an ordinary classmate who met by chance.
The two of them live under the same roof by yin and yang, from being separated from each other to being together all day long, to the fact that the family has undergone great changes and depended on each other for life, and their love is different.
He took Dou Xun as his family member, and the rabbit didn't eat the grass by the nest.
Besides, Dou Xun is a man.
For Xu Xilin, the three words "homosexuality" were similar to those who heard that there was ecstasy in "Yuebanwan". They were all far away from urban legends, and he never thought that there would be any intersection with him.
Xu Xilin hadn't slept well for several days, and was thinking about how to deal with this matter. As long as he didn't act like a jerk, he could still handle things. He knew that the "window paper" in the middle could never be broken.
Xu Xilin timidly avoided Dou Xun's occasional ambiguity. After hiding for more than a month, he found that Dou Xun had no idea about it, his attitude was still the same, and he accepted it.
So he took a roundabout way to give Dou Xun a powerful medicine when he took advantage of the "Volunteer Training for College Entrance Examination" specially opened for parents by No. 6 Middle School.
"Maybe it's time to apply for volunteers." Xu Xilin pretended to mention it inadvertently. This year, they applied for volunteers first and then took the exam, and their scores had to be measured according to historical data.
Dou Xun's eyes lit up with a "swipe", and he was about to put the slogan "Come to our school" on his head.
"I didn't decide whether to stay in the local area or go abroad," Xu Xilin said to himself without looking at him, "The cost-effective schools in other places are more cost-effective, you can apply for a slightly better one, but the local schools may have to lower their requirements. But I still have to take care of my grandma, and of course the closer the better..."
Dou Xun didn't expect that he didn't have a "so high ambition" at all, and was stunned.
Then Xu Xilin looked at him and smiled: "Don't you want to convince me to apply to your school? That's not realistic."
Dou Xun: "Why isn't it realistic?"
In the last semester of senior year, Xu Xilin achieved remarkable results in a holiday attack. He returned to the top ten in the class in the beginning of the school thorough examination. After that, he got a perfect score in mathematics. Although English was a hindrance, he still got him. Best grade since high school, third in the class.
"According to the same grades, as long as you can get 10 more points in your English test, you will be good at it." Dou Xun said quickly, "Isn't it easy to improve your English at this level? It didn't let you go from 140 to 1. Hundred-five, as long as you are willing to work hard and memorize it, you will be able to reach three digits, and there are still several months before the college entrance examination."
Xu Xilin: "That's just a 'play', maybe I'm just lucky, I won't be able to get so many points in the future? Seven... Teacher Zhang will not agree. Besides, you want me to risk falling out of the list to prepare for high school. Four?"
Dou Xun: "..."
"If you really say that, then I will report it, and I will recognize whether it is dead or alive in the future," Xu Xilin forced him to say, "Just say something."
Dou Xun opened his mouth and became dumb.
"Bean paste," Xu Xilin poured out the words he had considered for a long time in a slow and meaningful way, "Many times, wishes are good, but reality is cold, do you understand what I mean? A moment of desire has passed, and then how will it end? Do you want me to end this summer smoothly, or are you going to collect my body?"
Dou Xun was speechless.
This was the first time Xu Xilin had dealt with such a difficult matter, and he didn't know if he could hear it clearly, so he was in a cold sweat when he said it. Here are some leaf vein bookmarks, they are very beautiful, I asked her for one more, and put them in your book."
Dou Xun was very disappointed, and turned away without the mood to chat.
He faintly noticed that Xu Xilin seemed to have something to say, but he didn't react.
It wasn't until the middle of the night that he suddenly did not know which tendon was attached, got up from the bed, turned on the light, and opened the "Longyang History" on the table with sheep's heads and dog meat.
I saw a delicate leaf vein bookmark dropped from the title page.
Dou Xun's heart suddenly cooled down, and he sat stunned for a long time in the silence. He felt that the dew outside the window had all turned into a demonic energy, seeping in through the cracks of the window lattice and door, forming a thick frost on him.
His self-concealed temptation, self-concealed approach, turned out to be seen by others.
He and the world have always been malicious, and have never coexisted peacefully. The softness that is connected with hard work has just started, and before it has time to stretch, a bowl of ice has already been poured over his head.
Dou Xun sat blankly for a long time, and at the break of dawn, he secretly tore up his ridiculous schedule.
Since that day, Xu Xilin found that Dou Xun seemed to have listened to his words, no longer crossed the line, and reduced the number of times he went home.
The two lived in peace for a while, and Xu Xilin thought it was over.
Who knows what happened again.
It happened to be Saturday that day. Dou Xun received a call from Aunt Du early in the morning and learned that she was going to accompany Grandma Xu to the hospital for a physical examination and was away at night.
He touched his pocket and found that he didn't have the key, so he had to go to No. 6 Middle School first and find Xu Xilin after school together.
Xu Xilin's books were spread out on the table, and people didn't know where they went.
Lao Cheng was accustomed to seeing Dou Xun at school, so he talked a lot: "You two are really conjoined. Oh, Dou Xian'er, you said that you always go to your alma mater, I always feel that you haven't graduated yet, so look for our family. Group seat?"
Dou Xun nodded.
Lao Cheng: "He let Qilixiang take it away, you can go upstairs and have a look."
The countdown to the college entrance examination on the back blackboard has red letters on a white background, like a timed explosive pack. Generally speaking, teachers will not disturb students at this time for no reason.
Dou Xun didn't know what happened to him again, so he walked upstairs to the office a little worried.
The school stipulates that teachers should talk to students. If there are no other colleagues in the office, the door must be opened, and female teachers must obey.
As the weekend approached, no one in Qilixiang's office was there, the door was half open, Dou Xun stood at the door, just to hear Qilixiang say, "I hope you can think about this matter carefully, and I will also think about it, how to allocate it when I see it. It’s fair, and I haven’t applied for volunteers yet. Although this extra point is inconspicuous, it will give you the confidence to apply to a higher-level school.”
Dou Xun paused in his footsteps—by the way, he forgot that there should be one outstanding class cadre in the first class.
In the early years, there were many extra points for the college entrance examination, such as ethnic minorities, children of martyrs, competitions, athletes... and even city-level three-good students, outstanding student cadres, etc., all have extra points. Most of them are found by parents, and a small number are recommended by schools. For example, in a key class like Class 1, if you can't get a guaranteed place that year, you can at least get a bonus place.
Since it is an "excellent student cadre", it is usually given to either the monitor or the league secretary.
Dou Xun's heart skipped a beat - this meant that Xu Xilin might have the opportunity to apply to their school!
At this time, he heard Xu Xilin ask, "Why is there only one place in our class this year?"
Qilixiang sighed: "It is said that some parents wrote to respond, and it would be good to have one this year. Your grades at the end of last semester were too poor and you missed the recommendation for independent enrollment. It's a pity, this time is also an opportunity."
Xu Xilin nodded.
He asked this more, not because the collective consciousness was bursting, but thought of Luo Bing.
In the past three years, Luo Bing has done a lot of work, and he has done something. It doesn't need anyone to say. Xu Xilin's heart is like a mirror - in short, their squad leader works silently, and his league secretary leads everyone. Mischievous.
Xu Xilin could see that the teacher was a little undecided, but it had nothing to do with how many gifts Xu Jin gave to Qilixiang when he was alive. Because there was something wrong with his family, the teacher looked at him pitifully, this place was definitely for Luo Bing, and Qilixiang wouldn't ask him at all.
Xu Xilin pondered for a moment: "Have you told Luo Bing?"
Qilixiang didn't hide it, and said calmly: "I talked about it, and I said the same thing to the two of you. You go back and think about it. Let's see if we can get a class vote or something."
Xu Xilin didn't even have to think about the results of the class vote - would everyone prefer the teacher's spokesperson or his own friends
"No need for the teacher," Xu Xilin said, "it's better to give it to the monitor, I feel ashamed."
Dou Xun at the door caught his breath.
Qilixiang: "Don't you need to discuss with your family?"
"Who shall I discuss with?" Xu Xilin smiled wryly, "I have done this myself."
Dou Xun's face was ashen, and he barely held it for a moment, but he finally couldn't bear it any longer, turned his head and left.
He didn't hear what Xu Xilin said behind.
Xu Xilin said to Qilixiang: "Teacher, I know who you are attacking, my mother... When my mother was there, everything was arranged for me. Look, my eldest has grown into this bear-like appearance by himself. She's gone, it would be too shameless for me to take advantage of her yin, and it would be unfair to other students."
Dou Xun didn't wait for Xu Xilin, and headed home all the way. He was irritable at first, and swept across his chest like a prairie fire. Dou Xun aimed at a bull's horn and drilled in, thinking: "You can give up even extra points, so you don't want to be with me?"
When he got home and found that he couldn't get in, Dou Xun remembered that he wanted the key to Xu Xilin when he went to school.
He turned around twice at the door like a trapped beast. It was clearly warm and cold, but the air in and out of the trachea was heart-burning.
Dou Xun angrily kicked a small pebble, and then he remembered something else—the way Luo Bing was hesitant to talk to Xu Xilin every time, and how they were coaxed on KTV during the coming-of-age ceremony...
By the way - the first time the two of them did it was because of Luo Bing!
Dou Xun thought, "Why don't you see him being so noble to others?"
As soon as this thought came out, his internal organs exploded, and after the flames passed, the ground was covered in ashes.
Dou Xun tasted sharp jealousy in his heart of despair.
It was already half an hour after Xu Xilin strolled back slowly. He knew that Dou Xun was coming back, so he went to the supermarket and bought a bunch of jerky snacks for feeding. When he looked up, he saw the guy squatting at home alone. The door, like an unclaimed little animal, is indescribably pitiful.
"You're heartless, why don't you go to school to find me without the key?" Xu Xilin complained, stuffed the supermarket plastic bag into Dou Xun's hand, and took the key from the messy schoolbag to open the door, "No one is cooking tonight. , what do we order takeaway?"
He didn't pay any attention to Dou Xun's increasingly wrong gaze behind him.
Xu Xilin pushed open the door and entered the room, half kneeling on the ground to change his shoes, the question of who should walk the dog at night has spread from the dinner question, and it took a long time to notice that Dou Xun didn't answer.
Xu Xilin looked back at him in surprise: "Why..."
Dou Xun grabbed his collar fiercely and pushed him towards the shoe cabinet with force.