Xu Xilin was deadlocked for a long time without saying a word, and Dou Junliang didn't rush him, so he just waited beside him.
Xu Xilin was silent for a while, and then said to Dou Junliang: "Uncle, people can only have the final say in their own affairs, and they can't take care of others together. The future is a personal choice, and the biological parents have more control over the future. He will be complained, let alone me? Whether he is worth it or not, it doesn't matter what I said, you should go talk to Dou Xun."
Dou Junliang was a little surprised. He didn't expect Xu Xilin to be more difficult to deal with than he thought. He squinted and looked at Xu Xilin, feeling that this child might not be a person in the future... If it wasn't for him who insisted on going the wrong way.
Dou Junliang didn't force him and nodded: "It makes sense, but the reason why I didn't look for you, not because I couldn't provoke Dou Xun, was because I couldn't explain it to him. It's a no-brainer for me to tell him. Now you two have defeated the big villain like me, defending your relationship, it sounds like the world is moving, but it won't take long in the future, ten years, when you are in your thirties, Even if Dou Xun's reaction is slow, he can think about it, and then he will understand what he has given up and what he has gained, do you think the two of you can still be so good in ten years?"
Xu Xilin was speechless.
Dou Junliang beat him by half a trick, without showing any interest, he stood up and patted Xu Xilin on the shoulder affectionately: "Uncle is a businessman, let me give you some advice for a businessman. In this world, everything changes very quickly. Dare to think, it may happen overnight, and maybe one day in the future, even the bank and the country can go bankrupt, you can become extremely poor overnight, and you can reach the sky in one step - property is changing so quickly, not to mention that there is no contract or charter between people. feelings?"
After finishing speaking, Dou Junliang settled the bill generously, and ordered a box of soft and digestible snacks to be packed and handed to Xu Xilin: "The old lady has bad teeth, this is a good bite, take it back and relieve her boredom."
If Dou Junliang's initial language trap Xu Xilin could resist, then his last words completely hit Xu Xilin's mind.
"Long time" is something he dares to think about and does not dare to declare. Can people live in isolation and sneak around for a lifetime
Xu Xilin wondered if Dou Xun made such an unthinking decision, whether he would regret it in the future - Dou Xun is not the kind of character who can suffer grievances silently, how long can he endure? Can you accept the role of the crowd
He is indeed smart and has the money to start all over again, but he is used to it, does he have the tenacity
Even if he did, when the youth's face is gone, the passion of youth is gone forever, and when they all slowly become boring middle-aged men who "grow flowers on the outside and don't say a word at home", will Dou Xun know? Think it's not worth giving up everything he should have for such a relationship
A relationship should not have too many hardships, otherwise, even if it is reluctantly achieved, there will be resentment in the future.
Xu Xilin said, "I can't go overboard and take the place of cooking." It was his upper lip touching his lower lip, but he couldn't be so unrestrained in his heart. When his love was strong, everything was outside his body. Looking for something better, the only thing I can't afford is the words "delayed him".
The dilemma is really a dilemma.
When Xu Xilin came home, Dou Xun was on the phone, and he heard Dou Xun say, "Well, thank you... Anytime... Well, it's fine for four days a week this year."
Xu Xilin only heard the ending sound, and his heart sank slowly.
Dou Xun put down the phone, as if he was thinking about something, and came over in a good mood: "What delicious food did you buy?"
Xu Xilin didn't say a word, and gave him a look and went upstairs. Dou Xun saw that his face was wrong, so he followed up for unknown reasons: "What's wrong?"
Xu Xilin went upstairs, closed the door of the house, put his hand on the door panel, lowered his head and took a deep breath, and said in his calmest tone, "Did you refuse the school's postgraduate study?"
After Dou Xun was stunned for a moment, he immediately reacted: "Dou Junliang is looking for you?"
Xu Xilin was very helpless. Dou Xun was always slow to respond when he should be sharp, but he was very discerning when he shouldn't.
Dou Xunxiang was slapped by the scaled dragon, and when he caught fire, he turned around and left, Xu Xilin blocked the door: "What are you doing?"
Dou Xun: "Don't worry, I'll find Dou Junliang."
Xu Xilin: "And then, smash his glass?"
Dou Xun was furious: "Why is he looking for you, can he find you? Is it his turn to pretend to be an old man in front of me?"
Xu Xilin: "Okay!"
Dou Xun's chest kept heaving and he broke Xu Xilin's hand: "Get out of the way!"
Xu Xilin grabbed his chest and pushed him back a few steps: "When can you stop burning like a powder keg!"
Dou Xun's face was extremely ugly.
Xu Xilin put one hand behind his back, and his thumb pinched the joints of the other fingers one by one. He was under too much pressure, like a bucket that was about to overflow, and a leaf floating up could make the emotions inside spill out continuously.
The knuckles crackled, Xu Xilin forcibly swallowed the breath that could choke him to death, leaned against the door and opened his hand to Dou Xun, and whispered, "Let's talk and do things properly? I love it. you."
Dou Xun calmed down from his manic state, stood stiffly for a while, and reluctantly stepped forward and patted Xu Xilin's palm: "What else did Dou Junliang say to you?"
Xu Xilin: "It was said that a professor fell in love with you and rushed to give you a scholarship, but you pushed it."
"Bullshit," Dou Xun grabbed a handful of his hair, "You believe in any fart that Dou Junliang puts on—I don't understand, do you all think I should be the president of the country in the future?"
Xu Xilin smiled bitterly.
They do have higher expectations for Dou Xun, hoping that he will not be a "younger, big may not be good" Shang Zhongyong. He has never been ordinary since he was a child, and it would be cruel to force him to return to the life of an ordinary person now.
"Dou Junliang asked me to think about your future," Xu Xilin tried to communicate with him, "I thought about it, but I can't decide for you. I want to ask you what you think."
Dou Xun replied nonchalantly, "I plan to change careers."
Xu Xilin: "..."
Dou Junliang was right, he didn't understand this guy.
The fire that Xu Xilin suppressed went up: "You have finished writing your graduation thesis, and now tell me you want to change careers? I really don't like this major, what did you do earlier? Is it so easy to change majors? "
Then he saw Dou Xun's expression and found that Dou Xun seriously thought that changing majors was as easy as eating and drinking.
Dou Xun put his hand in his pocket: "I know an elective teacher who has a bachelor's degree in physics, a master's degree in Shakespeare literature, a doctor's degree in international trade, and is now teaching business English..."
Xu Xilin reluctantly interrupted him: "What a coincidence, I also know a teacher, who only took three degrees for Dr. Guang, but now he is nothing, and he has not even got a decent title, and the school will leave him alone after the household registration is settled. , Every day is so poor that he picks up private work outside, and sometimes he has to pay for his travel expenses, and he is not willing to bring even a graduate student who has started... Bean paste, many things are not what you think!"
Dou Xun turned his head and glanced out the window, silent.
As soon as Xu Xilin saw it, he knew that he was a "list to me or get out" solitary disease. He had to take a step back helplessly: "Okay, if you really want to change your major, you can read it seriously. Excuse your absurd medical excuse."
Dou Xun used body language to complete his stubborn rejection - I don't.
"You want to get rid of Dou Junliang, I understand, you don't want to use me, I... I also..." Xu Xilin said that this was a little sad, and his heart was terribly tired, "I think there is no scholarship in China and the time is long, I agree, you can go abroad to apply for a scholarship , four or five years, at most six or seven years... What else can you do, then it will be you Qin Xianglian or I am Chen Shimei
Xu Xilin made a half-sour joke and wanted to ease the atmosphere a little, but Dou Xun looked at him deeply with an indescribable look. Gradually, Xu Xilin couldn't laugh anymore, he understood the meaning behind Dou Xun's words - Dou Xun really thought so. , the man is not his.
Xu Xilin leaned against the desk slowly, and after a while, he curved the corner of his mouth half-smile.
"Oh..." He lowered his head slightly, "So you think so."
Dou Xun panicked and grabbed his shoulder nervously, but Xu Xilin avoided him. Dou Xun blurted out, "You said you weren't angry with me!"
Xu Xilin's heart throbbed, and he was suddenly so distressed that he couldn't restrain himself, so he clasped Dou Xun's hand and unilaterally ended the quarrel.
"I'll try," he thought, "I'll walk with him, as Dou Junliang said, prepare a decent, let him do whatever he wants, if he has grievances that he can't bear in the future, and thresholds that he can't pass. , I'm all for him."
The so-called "difference", in the final analysis, isn't it because he is not strong enough
Xu Xilin's desire for success was louder than ever.
Chicken soup for the soul says, "When your heart longs for success like a drowning person longs for air, you will succeed"... But when it comes to Xu Xilin, it doesn't seem quite right.
Since the education supermarket joined the vitamin supplier, there have been many follow-up incidents.
First, some users were skeptical - the taste of fruit growing on a tree is not the same. No one mentioned it before. Now, as long as the taste is a little unsatisfactory, skeptics will appear on the message board, thinking that vitamins are Use shoddy supplies from educational supermarkets.
At the education supermarket, there is nothing to do every three days. The surnamed Wang regards Xu Xilin as his own little reminder, and announces him once in a while, either ordering him to make a poster, or asking him to find someone to help distribute flyers... This is still a good thing. The slut Wang always said that the sales channels of the education supermarket were subject to "unfair competition", and repeatedly asked Xu Xilin to increase the price of other fruits.
The sales volume of vitamins on both sides fell by 40% in a month, and later, there were even fewer people who scold him on the message board.
Xu Xilin ran exhausted for more than a month, racking his brains, but still couldn't stop the decline.
And the final exam, no matter what stumbles the students, is still approaching with the fall of winter.
When Xu Xilin was approaching the exam week, he was distracted and opened the brand-new textbook. He was shocked to find that he was busy with nothing this semester, and he didn't study for a few days!
He had no choice but to squeeze out the time to live in an overnight self-study classroom with the internet addict teenagers suffering from advanced procrastination, and began to study "twenty hours a day, two weeks in a semester" cramming.
He stayed in the all-night self-study classroom every day. He was so sleepy that he lay down and took a nap. The next day at 6:30, he returned to the dormitory where he had not lived for a few days to wash up, came out to have breakfast, and then took root in the self-study classroom again. In the middle of the night, I stayed up all day and night for more than half a month, and after the crazy exam week, Xu Xilin felt that his whole body was hollowed out. Unfamiliar phone.
On the phone, an old man with bad ears shouted into the receiver, "Hey... Are you that Su Wenwan's grandson?"
Xu Xilin was a little stunned and wondered: "Who is Su Wenwan?"
The next moment, he suddenly realized that he had seen this name on his grandmother's ID card before.
Xu Xilin: "Yes, yes, I am, hello."
"Oops, kid, come over quickly, your grandma taught them how to walk at the activity center today, and accidentally fell..."
Xu Xilin made a "buzz" in his head, his floating footsteps suddenly fell to the ground, he put down the phone and ran away.
He hurried to the hospital and saw a large group of old men and old ladies circling around Grandma Xu. When they saw him coming, they all talked to him, making him dizzy, but fortunately, the nurses chased him out. , Only then did I understand from the doctor's mouth - the old man's bones were brittle, and he fell badly and broke a bone.
"Bone spurs are still growing here," the doctor pointed to him with the film. "It's okay to have surgery, but it may grow in the future. The patient is too old, so conservative treatment is best, and don't let the elderly go too far in the future. Lu, go back and get her a cane or something..."
Grandma Xu heard it next to her and protested in a low voice, "I don't want that, it's hard to put down that one."
The doctor laughed: "Then don't let it go. It's normal for you to use crutches at your age. Why, are you planning to run a marathon in the future?"
Grandma Xu remained silent.
Xu Xilin comforted her a few words, went through various formalities for her, and hired a nurse. It took half a day before everything was done properly. When he was done, he sat down on the chair beside him, feeling numb from exhaustion.
Grandma Xu was lying alone on the hospital bed, wearing a hospital gown, her hair was disheveled, her jewelry was taken off, her face was pale and wrinkled, and she waved to him, "Come on."
Xu Xilin moved a chair to the side of her bed: "I called Xiaoxun just now, he will come over in a while, we two take turns to accompany you, and the nurse, just lie down... You too, just make a gesture Hey, if you don't take the stage, why are you teaching so hard?"
"Old." Grandma Xu said following his voice, then she raised her hand and gestured to her temple, "The loess is buried here."
She had never admitted that she was old before. This was the first time she said such a thing in front of him. Xu Xilin: "What are you talking about!"
"People can't stay for long," said grandma. "My father lived to be sixty years old, and my mother lived to be seventy-one years old. I surpassed them both."
Xu Xilin smiled reluctantly: "People in the past had short lifespans, you have to live to 111 to be worthy of the 21st century... Who hasn't fallen yet? Dou Xun still falls in the boxing gym all day long. It's like a watermelon skin, isn't it also alive and kicking, you are just catching up with the inch strength, why are you talking about frustration?"
"Ah," Grandma waved her hand, "don't be discouraged, your life expectancy is fixed, I know. Grandma has something to tell you."
Xu Xilin had no choice but to listen.
The grandmother was silent for a long time, and the smile on her face gradually disappeared.
Xu Xilin suddenly had an ominous premonition, and the corners of his mouth tightened.
Grandma seemed to consider it for a long time, and then slowly spit out a sentence: "You and Xiaoxun, don't be together."
Xu Xilin's heart froze for a moment, Dou Junliang said a thousand words and ten thousand, without grandma's light weight.
she knows! When did she know
Grandma Xu couldn't hide a worried look on her old face, she patted Xu Xilin's hand and said, "I shouldn't be long-winded. When I was young, I was impatient to listen to the old man's speech. I endured it for a long time, but when I fell down, I just thought, this is the end, I can't see Xiaolin graduated from university... So I was lying here just now, I still think it's better to say something early - you two are too difficult, and I won't worry about leaving in the future, or... Forget it. Bar."
Xu Xilin was speechless.
Dou Xun, who came in a hurry, hurriedly braked at the door of the ward, and was knocked out of his head by the conversation floating out from inside.
Then Dou Xun walked out without even thinking about it. He wandered in the hospital hall for more than half an hour before calling Xu Xilin: "I'm at the hospital, which ward is coming?"
Xu Xilin was exhausted and did not notice Dou Xun's abnormality, so he went home to get a change of clothes after explaining it.
He drifted home in a daze, and the moment he stood up after changing his shoes at the entrance, his eyes suddenly went dark, he grabbed something, and with a "bang", even the independent hanger was pulled down.
There was no one at home, and the grey parrot froze with fright, flew to the small chandelier in the entrance and looked down at him.
Xu Xilin felt that the entire ceiling was spinning, so he didn't get up after climbing twice, so he had to lie down on the cold floor.
He suddenly understood a little bit why Grandma Xu wanted to sell the house back then—it wasn't all about money, their family was really big. When there was a lively family, this family was warm and rich. Every day in such a big house, she, an old lady, would probably be frightened for a long time when she heard a movement upstairs and downstairs.
No wonder she was always at home, but now she is always running.
It took four or five minutes for Xu Xilin to gather enough strength to get up. He slowly lifted the hanger, and the phone rang again.
Now he was nervous when the phone rang, and when he picked it up, he found out that it was a counselor, and Xu Xilin was greatly relieved.
But the counselor's tone was not very relaxed. She came up and said, "How do you think your signal and system test?"
Xu Xilin was stunned for a while—the exam week lasted for more than ten days. This course was the first to be tested, and the results may have already come out.
The counselor sighed: "Well, you come to school tomorrow, and I'll take you to have a meal with Teacher Zhou. You can't fail the course, you know?"
Xu Xilin's grades can be more commonplace. Anyway, his overall quality score is already full, so there is no problem with getting a scholarship. But he can't fail the course. The school has regulations. If he fails a course, all the qualifications for merit evaluation and scholarships for the year will be cancelled.
Putting down the phone, a thought suddenly appeared in Xu Xilin's mind, he thought, "I can't take vitamins any longer."