Xu Xilin's driver's license was missing, and Dou Xun caught a glimpse and couldn't help but ask another question.
"I put it away if I don't take the order." Xu Xilin said, helping Dou Xun, who was wearing a seat belt, to tuck the hem of his coat, and bent his eyes at him, "I won't sit for others in the future."
Dou Xun was stunned for a while, seeing Xu Xi holding the back seat of the co-pilot with his hands, turning around and backing the car skillfully with this gesture as if to wrap the person sitting on the co-pilot in his arms, he didn't say anything clearly—"In the future Don't give others a seat", shouldn't there be a sentence beginning with "only give"
But Xu Xilin teased him, but didn't say anything.
Dou Xun's sluggish nerves finally reacted in the ambiguous air, and looked at Xu Xilin with strange eyes, the person who disturbed his sleep in his dream the night before seemed to be soaking him!
It's kind of a weird experience.
At this time, the mobile phone in Xu Xilin's pocket was ringing again, and President Xu was dealing with all kinds of situations.
Xu Xilin didn't even look at it, he turned off the phone, turned off the ringtone, and threw it directly into the back seat of the car.
Dou Xun said: "Don't hang up, what if something happens? You are busy with yours, don't worry about me."
Xu Xilin said with a half-smile, "No, I don't have anything more important."
Dou Xun: "..."
It's not like, that's what Xu Xilin meant!
Dou Xun's overall plan was disrupted again. He sat on the smooth-running car with a blank face. He wanted to rush over simply and rudely.
It was very simple for teenagers to be together, and he could screw it up at that time, not to mention the complicated life that adults need to adjust to each other. When Xu Xilin tried to turn the past and start anew, Dou Xun silently pulled in his heart. Zhang's long list - it's full of historical issues from the past between the two of them.
When Dou Xun was the most painful and difficult to let go of his old relationship, he once went to a counselor. The counselor was a chubby and kind-hearted old lady. After listening to his stumbling memories, hatred and still strong love, he asked him: "You said a lot. Your own feelings, but do you know how the other person feels?"
"Love is not a result, not a career, it's not something that you have to bite the bullet and work hard to get results. It's the result of the interaction between two people. You are absorbed in it wholeheartedly. No matter how deep the relationship is, it must be passive. Because between people, lovers, relatives, even classmates, colleagues, and partners, there is a relationship of need and need, but some are spiritual needs, some are material needs - the more you care about each other It seems that you have to pay more, but in fact, the stronger the initiative, the less anxiety and anxiety.”
Dou Xun sighed slowly. After so many years of separation, he didn't dare to hope that Xu Xilin could not let go of his feelings for him. The other party might just have an empty window, and he was also idle when he was idle. This is a natural reaction to meeting an old lover. That's it. When Grandma Xu passed away, Xu Xilin sent him an email in the middle of the night, but he never received a reply... Dou Xun didn't know how much grudge Xu Xilin would have in his heart. Anyway, he saved others by himself. It will be stuck in the throat for a lifetime.
So going out with Xu Xilin was a painful and happy torture for Dou Xun.
Xu Xilin has been fighting against the wind for many years. He seems to be proud of the spring breeze. In fact, the guilt he suffered does not match the positive result. In those years, apart from Song Lianyuan, who was also struggling, anyone who knew the cold and the hot would not let his head break. Go down that road smoothly.
But one fate, two luck and three feng shui, it is meaningless to talk about the past now.
Xu Xilin gradually cultivated a face that is not bad. He belongs to a person who is full of foolishness in his heart and never shows his cowardice on the surface. From Dou Xun's point of view, he takes care of people with a kind of hand-to-hand face, and he knows it all too well. Advances and retreats are too measured, sometimes giving people a vague illusion that he is touching the palm of his hand, and he is careful not to make people feel pressured.
If Dou Xun met Xu Xilin on the first day, he probably wouldn't have the slightest discomfort. Maybe he would have been coaxed into confusion.
Unfortunately not.
He had seen Xu Xilin when he was cowardly, depressed, coquettish, and even furious, and he knew in his heart that it was all a trick.
When Gao Lan met Xu Xilin for the first time, he felt that this young man was like a sweet playboy, like a dessert with all the colors and flavors. It's not as good as whole wheat black-faced Song Lianyuan who eats at ease.
Not to mention Dou Xun.
Fortunately, Dou Xun has settled down for many years. Although the essence is that dogs can't change from eating shit, on the surface, they can at least be suppressed, and they can control their rhythm, so that people can't see the clues.
The date didn't go through afterward, because Xu Xilin had been running non-stop since a few years ago, and when he came back, he was abnormally excited for several days. It was almost midnight when he got home from Laocheng the night before, and he checked the Internet for half a night. Rent and route - Dou Xun's stimulant was too much, just after noon, Xu Xilin, who had been on standby for a long time, ran out of electricity.
At that time, the two of them happened to meet a rental agency that had a New Year's Eve. The agency spit out the picture book and introduced it to Dou Xun. Everyone wanted to show him. Halfway through the story, Dou Xun accidentally glanced at Xu Xilin and found him He was holding his head in one hand, maintaining a deep sitting posture like a thinker, and fell asleep on the small sofa next to him.
Agent: "The advantage of this suite I told you just now is..."
Dou Xun suddenly raised his hand and interrupted him.
Dou Xun stood up gently and put his coat on Xu Xilin's body. Only then did the young man of the agency realize that the gentleman was actually asleep - his sleeping posture was good, and he was very skilled.
When Xu Xilin woke up, Dou Xun and the intermediary had finished talking and was looking over the rental contract.
Xu Xilin moved slightly, and the clothes on his body fell off. He caught it, hugged the coat in his arms, and gave Dou Xun a dazed smile.
At that moment, Dou Xun had a strange feeling, as if the years he had missed for so many years and the wasting of the two sides were all a dream.
When he woke up in the afternoon, the young man he loved deeply didn't go far, and he didn't get caught in the red dust. The outside was as soft as the inside. He was just a stone's throw away from him. Rubbing his hand...
"Let's start again" was neatly lined up on Dou Xun's tongue.
This time, I won't persecute you again, I won't insatiably seek security from you, and I won't do things that make you unhappy in front of others.
This time, I'll let you, I'll apologize, and I'll knock on your door.
This time I'd rather swallow my tongue than never mention parting and breaking...
At this time, Xu Xilin woke up and took a nap, stretched out, and his stiff body made a "clack" sound. He came over and returned the jacket to Dou Xun, and laughed at himself: "You can fall asleep while sitting, look at It's getting old..."
Dou Xun looked at him deeply.
Xu Xilin lowered his head and looked at himself from the beginning to the end, touched his hair, raised his eyebrows arrogantly, and showed a somewhat meaningful smile: "Why do you look at me like that?"
Dou Xun: "..."
Someone just woke up and remembered to seduce him again.
Dou Xun was shivered by his deliberately lowered voice, and at the same time forcibly swallowed the longing in his heart.
"Not the time," Dou Xun restrained himself in his heart, "Wait a minute, there is still time, don't be impatient."
Then he booked a room and asked Xu Xilin to drive him back to Laoye Flower Shop on the excuse that he was tired, and he couldn't help but drive Xu Xilin back to rest.
Xu Xilin refused to leave: "I'm gone, you have leftovers at night, and my son..."
Dou Xun stretched out a finger and swept it under his eyes.
Xu Xilin's footsteps were instantly rusted, and he took a breath.
Dou Xun didn't touch him, but people's faces are so sensitive that they will make up their minds if they don't touch him. Dou Xun said lightly, "Go back and look in the mirror. If you're so tired, you won't use it anymore."
Xu Xilin didn't say a word, so he left obediently. Dou Xun kept watching him drive the car away from the window, and then touched the grey parrot's head. Listlessly, he turned back and bit his toy.
There was no joy on Dou Xun's face. He remembered that Grandma Xu was gone on the fifth day of the first lunar month. After all, it was her death day. Dou Xun didn't know how Xu Xilin would tell him about it.
On the third day of the first lunar month, Xu Xilin came to report on time. During the period of time, he had nothing to do. He made a new plan for the old half-dead flower shop.
Lao Cheng was too lazy to pay attention to him: "I'm a kebab seller, and I don't know what literary affection is."
Xu Xilin criticized the ecstatic plastic paper and ribbon packaging of gift flowers in his store: "I really can't stand it."
As he said, he took down the bouquet that Laocheng had placed as a sample and disassembled it. He solemnly took out every flower in it and compared it. After a lot of fighting, the last one was left, which was carefully trimmed with small scissors. , sprayed fresh water, put his hand on Dou Xun's neckline, and then gently pulled a petal down from the top, took a gift card with a wood texture from the table, and put it in the chest of his vest. small pocket.
"This kind of props are used by the village committee to welcome the performance of theatrical performances in the countryside." Xu Xilin pointed to the messy pool on the table and did not go to see Dou Xun. The petals picked from the top are pressed and processed into specimens - that is, the popular 'eternal flower', which is sealed and inlaid, which is called the route of 'literary and artistic affection'."
Lao Cheng was completely stunned by his shamelessness.
Cai Jing looked at the flower on Dou Xun's chest, a humanoid prop, and at Xu Xilin who walked away casually, always feeling that something was wrong.
On the fourth day of the first lunar month, Dou Xun wanted to move. Xu Xilin went earlier than him, and helped him move for a day. Halfway through, Xu Xilin went out for a while, and Dou Xun thought that his company had something to deal with.
As a result, two hours later, Xu Xilin came back again, from the curtains, new bed sheets, to the still life portraits hanging in the living room and the rotating racks... Everything was done for him, and he directed the installation workers like a storm. Pack it up, throw the key to the hourly worker for cleaning, and take Dou Xun out for dinner.
In the evening, Xu Xilin took a photo of Dou Xun's house number, waved his phone at him, and went back to the flower shop to pick up his son.
Don't put the flowers on Dou Xun's body a little curled up. Dou found a small vase and filled it with water. He wanted to keep it for two days, but the flower branch was destroyed by Xu Xilin's hot hands. withered down.
Dou Xun thought, "He didn't tell me about tomorrow."
The fifth day of the first month was the anniversary of my grandmother's death. Xu Xilin carefully avoided this topic with Dou Xun. This was something he didn't want to mention to Dou Xun at this stage. Some meals were not cooked once, and if they were returned to the pot, the taste would always be wrong. Although Xu Xilin really wanted to overthrow everything and start over, he knew intellectually that it was impossible, so he had to look forward as much as possible.
The unanswered email was the testimony of Dou Xun's "old and dead do not communicate with each other". Xu Xilin revolved around Dou Xun every day without hindrance. Because he always felt that Dou Xun would think of "from now on, we will end our relationship, and there will be nothing to do with each other", and coldly interrupted his wishful thinking.
In the early morning of the fifth day of the fifth day, Xu Xilin got up early, and when the old man walking the birds just went out, he came to the cemetery with a cry of cold morning dew.
The cemetery is for two people. When Grandpa Xu Xilin passed away, a place was reserved for Ms. Su Wenwan. When Xu Jin was still alive, he paid for the cemetery. It was guaranteed that after the 20-year property rights period, the two of them would still have the opportunity to move in together. live.
The photo was replaced by a group photo of grandfather and grandmother when they were young. Xu Xilin wiped the tombstone, greeted the grandfather who had never seen it before, and put the flower down.
"The bean paste is back." Xu Xilin whispered to his grandmother, "I..."
He frowned. He didn't bother to eat breakfast in the morning. His stomach, which was soaked in wine, began to protest vaguely. Xu Xilin sighed and pressed down on the painful place with one hand. He squatted down like a child and lowered his head to his grandmother. "I'm sorry for you," said softly.
He still loves Dou Xun.
He originally thought that he had been in the eyes of money for so many years and was not interested in anyone, but when that person came back, he found out that it was the dust left over from the old days that had occupied the place on his chest, which had been occupied for many years. Sweep it up and it's back on fire overnight.
He felt sorry for worrying about his grandmother until he left, because he couldn't let go.
I'm also sorry for Dou Xun, because even if I couldn't let go, I couldn't make it to the end.
Xu Xilin was silent for a while, patted the tombstone twice, and stood up with the cold slate: "I'll see him later, I promise."
After he finished speaking, he wrapped his coat tightly and walked to the parking lot.
A few meters away, Xu Xilin took out the key and unlocked the lock. The front and rear headlights lit up a few times as if awake from a dream. Xu Xilin's footsteps suddenly stopped.
He saw a man come out of the back of his car and come silently in front of him.
Dou Xun.