Dou Xun felt that there was a huge trap in front of him. He could see the net, but he was still attracted by the bait in the middle of the net.
"I'm still withdrawn." Dou Xun said, "I still don't like hanging out with a bunch of half-baked people, and I don't like that you are always not in front of me... I have seen a psychiatrist and read a lot of books, I want to learn change, but the country is easy to change and its nature is difficult to change.”
Xu Xilin understood, he broke the contract once, Dou Xun learned to tell him "the villain first, then the gentleman" and put the ugly words up front, he nodded: "Yes."
Dou Xun added, "I sometimes stare at you all day long, and I still don't know what you're thinking. I'm just... an expired piece of tape, and it won't stick anywhere."
Xu Xilin put all the prepared dishes out and put them in the restaurant: "Why are you suddenly so self-aware?"
"The whole world is a fool when you are condescending," Dou Xun lightly touched Xu Xilin's calf, "One day, I was stumbled over and fell into a mouthful of mud. After tasting that, I realized that I am no smarter than others. where to go."
"I stumbled on your big somersault, why didn't you find someone better?" Xu Xilin sat on the small stool in the restaurant, sighed, bent down, leaned his upper body slightly forward, and pulled Dou Xunchui The hand on one side, like when it was difficult to separate, pressed back and forth against the knuckles on the back of Dou Xun's hand that were still abrupt.
Xu Xilin asked, "Is it because I'm not as handsome?"
Dou Xun's eyes were slightly red.
Dou Junliang said it very honestly back then, everything has changed very quickly, in the past ten years, the country and the bank will really go bankrupt, and Xu Xilin is really poor overnight and prosperous again. And he will never talk about "forever" again, because he knows that he will break his promise and gain weight.
The body of mortals will eventually rot, and the soul will not be immortal. What a person will become is impossible to predict, whether he is tempted or persecuted. The pampas grass is not tenacious, and the rock will eventually shift. Shanmeng vows that if this thing is talked about, it may only have the function of talking and slapping the face.
Then, without insurance and claims, the heart-wrenching relationship can go on and on
Dou Xun said in a low voice, "Well, because none of them are as handsome as you."
... Maybe it's the "I still love you" of "Drinking Arsenic with a Laugh" and "Moths to the Fire"
Xu Xilin accompanies Dou Xun to have a hot meal. He agreed to catch a flight the next morning, but it was still late. He told Dou Xun how the gray parrot became the eighth in the haunted dormitory. The protagonist of the ghost story, and the legendary story of how Song Lianyuan became a benefactor, seems to have returned to the small living room of the former Xu family site. The two of them took one side of the sofa and grabbed a bag of beef jerky to eat for a week. I can only see you on weekends. Every time I talk too much, I have to keep my voice hoarse.
After ten o'clock in the middle of the night, Xu Xilin really had no choice but to say goodbye.
"Then I'm leaving." Xu Xilin picked up his jacket and said to Dou Xun.
Dou Xun's fingers curled subconsciously, as if trying to grab something, and looked at him eagerly: "What time will you fly tomorrow?"
Xu Xilin: "Eight o'clock."
It took forty minutes to drive from his house to the airport, and he had to leave after six o'clock.
Dou Xun struggled to correct his excessive clinginess and possessiveness, and repeated the words "you go, I won't send you, you come, no matter how windy or rainy, I'll pick you up" two or three times in his mind, forcing him. He was considerate, reluctantly put away his reluctance, stood up and sent him out.
Xu Xilin put on his clothes slowly, not knowing why, he dawdled at the door while changing his shoes: "I can't make it back for a month or two, maybe I can hide the summer, you ... um... Forget it, come back and talk about it, I'm leaving, bye..."
Dou Xun thought he would be back in a few days, but when he heard "a month or two", he was immediately stunned.
What "I won't send you", go to the goddamn ghost! Don't go!
Before Xu Xilin finished saying "bye bye", Dou Xun rushed up and took it back without any explanation.
Dou Xun slapped the door he just opened and pressed it back: "I'm closer to the airport, don't leave today."
Xu Xilin: "I have all my luggage and documents..."
Dou Xun: "I'll go back and get it for you tomorrow morning."
Xu Xilin was taken aback by the change in his face when he suddenly tore off the mask, and he didn't come back to his senses for a while: "But..."
Dou Xun didn't let him talk, and dragged him back around his waist.
Xu Xilin: "Shoes, shoes, shoes..."
Dou Xun was impatient and kissed the corner of his mouth: "I'll take you to the airport."
Xu Xilin: "..."
Dou Xunxun knew the taste, and the kiss was not enjoyable, so he slowly leaned in, touched the tip of his nose a few times, and gave the gentleness he couldn't pour out a chance to exercise.
When he leaned over, Xu Xilin's mind suddenly went blank. He grabbed it casually, and happened to grab a handrail.
Xu Xilin immediately leaned into the air, and the two of them fell into the house together, hitting the chair at the door, where Dr. Dou Luo's book mountain collapsed.
It's been so many years - his chair as a bookshelf still hasn't been cured.
Dou Xun's crotch collided with the heavy chair, making a loud noise.
The chair flew away.
Dou Xun: "Hi..."
Xu Xilin stepped on a bunch of "engineers of the human soul", touched the wall twice, and turned on the wall lamp. The dim light illuminated Dou Xun's distorted face, and the two looked at each other. After a while, Xu Xilin: "Pfft—"
Dou Xun rubbed the tip of his nose, so embarrassed.
Xu Xilin: "Did I catch up with your transformation?"
When he spoke, he raised his eyebrows slightly. Dou Xunfang didn't think about it at first. This would be opposite to him in a small space. Before he had time to stifle the unruly heart in the cradle, the wind would grow, and the germination was completed in an instant. The process of the towering tree broke through years of sadness and ecstasy.
His heart started beating wildly in his chest, and his throat was too dry to speak.
Xu Xilin coughed dryly. In order to relieve the atmosphere that he was about to set fire to the fire, he distracted his attention by clearing the books on the floor and picked up the first one. Xu Xilin glanced at the cover inadvertently, and said, "Oh, this book is my favorite. I bought it too—you said you can’t get it from me?”
Dou Xun remembered this, and his face was flushed to the pinna of his ears.
"This one, too..." Xu Xilin glanced at the book on the ground, and finally realized something under the familiar faces. He looked up at Dou Xun in disbelief, the corner of his mouth going up and down several times without smiling.
Dou Xun's eyes dodged for a while, and when he saw it, he became angry and glared back.
Xu Xilin held a book and shook it: "This is the one we two... Then what, we have a good understanding of each other, right?"
Dr. Dou was finally ridiculed by him, and he closed the bedroom door without saying a word.
What happened next seemed to be a matter of course, and it seemed to be a reunion of an old dream.
The thoughts and entanglements that are far away from the ocean have condensed into a cluster of leads in the chaotic night, and a fire burned it and exploded with a bang. The quiet wall lights are smudged in layers, and those words that are not dare to be put on the lips or are inconvenient to be put on the lips are all pasted into a piece of paper, mist, and chaos...
Into a tacit silent confession.
Dou Xun felt that he was supposed to be tired and satisfied, but he didn't sleep much all night, and woke up every ten minutes on average.
He habitually maintains a posture that occupies half of the bed, and when he reaches the critical point of half asleep and half awake, he forgets where he is in a trance. Open your eyes to confirm.
After so many times, the dead man couldn't sleep. Dou Xun regained his energy and lay down facing the ceiling for a while. He couldn't help but touch the quilt. He grabbed Xu Xilin's hand for a while, and then hugged him again. Just hit something.
It was just after three o'clock in the morning, Dou Xun got up as if he had taken a stimulant.
People who haven't been used to living with others for a long time sleep lightly, so Xu Xilin was about to wake up in a daze, turned over with a frown, and was manually turned back by Dou Xun, a neuropathy.
"Where's the key?" Dou Xunfu whispered in his ear, "I'll go get your luggage."
Xu Xilin's blood pressure was low in the morning, and his body was so uncomfortable that he couldn't open his eyes.
When Dou Xun saw him frown, he was reluctant to quarrel any more, touched his face lightly, went to pick up the coat Xu Xilin had thrown on the ground the night before, and found the key in his pocket.
When he walked to the door, he suddenly remembered the immoral thing he did when he was young—calling Xu Xilin who was at home on vacation early in the morning, kissing him, running out for a while, feeling unwilling, running back and waking him up again, for the sake of kiss the other side.
Dou Xun was a bit hilarious, feeling that he was really annoying at the time, if he went back to the past now, he would have to catch that disturbing little brat and beat him up.
Dou Xun drove Xu Xilin's car to his house. Xu Xilin's business trip was a common occurrence, and the suitcase was placed next to the shoe rack.
After Dou Xun opened it, he simply checked the change of clothes, charger, computer wallet and documents. Seeing that they were all installed, he knew that he had arranged them in advance and just picked them up and left.
The gray parrot, who was left alone in the empty room, finally saw a living creature, and called out pitifully, "Gong, Gong Xi Fa Cai."
As a result, it flew out and saw that the person who came was not Xu Xilin at all. It thought its feelings were deeply wasted and ran away gloomily.
Dou Xun, who received the auspicious words early in the morning, brightly changed the water for it, added food, and waved to the grey parrot who was hiding far away: "I will send your father away first, and I will come to see you later. "
Parrots are stupid - rivals! stepmother!
Dou Xun's long-cherished wish for many years has been fulfilled, and his temperament has softened. This will see that everything in the world is pleasing to the eye.
He threw Xu Xilin's luggage in the trunk, remembering that he had just jumped down the last two steps, so brisk and lively. Dou Xun paused and reflected on the spot for a moment, feeling that he was too embarrassed.
But ordinary men have no connotation. Only through the body can they touch the soul. In order to cure his pretentious secondary cancer over the years, Dou Xun has told himself the facts and reason countless times, convincing himself that he has no extraordinary qualifications, but the disease always recurs.
Until this moment, he admitted it convincingly, thinking, "I'm really vulgar."
Then he hummed vulgarly and walked away.
Dou Xun acted as the driver and took Xu Xilin to the airport all the way.
"I'll come back as soon as possible, help me..." Xu Xilin said as he touched the keys in his pocket, and after feeling the air, he remembered that the clothes were not his own from the inside out.
"Feed the birds." Dou Xun shook his key.
Xu Xilin had a hunch that he wouldn't be able to walk any longer, so he hurriedly pulled the suitcase and ran away.
King Dou has acquired a new and unfamiliar territory, and can't wait to go to inspect it. The gray parrot huddled on a high shelf like a slave to his country. He watched Dou Xun come and go tremblingly. Rub the floor in a small cupboard for spare toiletries.
He picked up Xu Xilin's body lotion and shook it. He felt that there was only half of the bottle left, and he was full of anticipation - after waiting patiently for a few months, Xu Xilin would always return to the taste he was familiar with.
Dou Xun admits that his nostalgia is a little morbid, and he knows that it is impossible to go back to the past, but he still can't resist that desire. He didn't dare to be too rude in front of Xu Xilin, and was ready for a protracted battle, wanting to make up for what he lost bit by bit in a subtle way.
At this time, the hourly worker came. Xu Xilin gave him the hourly worker's phone number when he was leaving. Dou Xun greeted her and went to train the grey parrot. It turned out that the hourly worker was done very quickly and wiped the living room, kitchen and bathroom. After he opened the door to the small bedroom, he left everything else and said hello to him.
Dou Xun asked strangely, "Do you care about other rooms?"
The hourly worker politely told him, "The other rooms are locked, so I usually don't care. Didn't Mr. Xu tell you?"
Xu Xilin really didn't say anything.
Dou Xun sent her away inexplicably. He wanted to make a phone call to ask Xu Xilin, and took the opportunity to have a few words with him, but he was a little worried that he would contact him too often and disturb his serious business. Although Dou Xun frankly confessed his excessive possessiveness and desire for control in front of Xu Xilin, he did not dare to put his stinky problems on the other party's tolerance.
"What's in the house? Why is it locked?" Dou Xun asked the grey parrot.
The Grey Parrot made up his mind in front of him to keep his mouth shut, not saying a word.
Dou Xun thought for a while, opened the small drawer on the shoe cabinet at the door - where the spare keys of Xu's house and the change for grocery shopping were kept here - and he found a few room keys.
Dou Xun took the key, went to the locked room, and boldly asked the parrot, "Can I take a look?"
The gray parrot thought for a while, flew to his shoulder, and decided to join the enemy—the large parrot was very curious, and it seemed that he had already explored the place at home that it could not go to. Finally, someone was willing to take it to do bad things.
One person and one bird hit it off. Dou Xun opened the room that looked like a study in the north. He recognized at a glance that it was the furnishings of Xu Jin's former study. There was a radio opposite the door. It was Grandma Xu's old thing. repaired.
Dou Xun was stunned for a while. He held down the grey parrot that was trying to fly in, and closed the door in time. The grey parrot was angrily trying to bite him, but he pinched his neck.
"You can't move around here." Dou Xun said to it softly, his eyes drifted to the door of the other bedroom involuntarily. At this time, Dou Xun realized that the two bedrooms with two sunny sides in the middle of the three rooms happened to be opposite the door. If there is a living room in the middle, the layout is exactly the same as the second floor of the Xu family.
He realized something, his chest was a little stuffy, he walked slowly step by step, tried twice and failed to insert the key, only then did he realize that his hands were shaking.
Dou Xun took a deep breath, lowered his head and smiled in a self-deprecating manner, thinking, "Don't be so selfish, maybe it's just a utility room."
The door shaft let out a coquettish sigh, and the truth behind the door lock slammed into Dou Xun's eyes without any obstruction.
He saw the old writing desk attached to the summer vacation, with an empty chocolate box on the corner of the desk, expired insulating tape in the air, the yellow heart shape became mottled, and several books he hadn't taken away were spread on the table, Between the pages are the savage handwriting of his boyhood...
The Grey Parrot took the opportunity to break free from his clutches and patrolled the new territory as he wished.
All of Dou Xun's consciousness was paralyzed for a while, and he didn't know how long it took before he recovered from the old dream of his past life and this life, only to realize that he actually burst into tears.