Su Rourou's heart suddenly ached: She only remembered how sad and sad she was, why didn't she think about it, how did he come here all these years? Orphaned, widowed and helpless, far away from home... His life was probably as hard as she could have imagined.
"I know, you've been blaming me, blaming me for leaving without saying goodbye, blaming me for not contacting you." Luo Yichen's Adam's apple rolled slightly, his voice was slightly choked, but his eyes were still closed, "But you don't know You know, I forced myself to leave you, force myself not to contact you, in fact... I am in more pain than you. You said that you are willing to suffer with me, you don't mind-but, I mind... I don't want you Live a life of ups and downs with me, and don't want you to suffer from other people's strange eyes because of me."
Su Rourou's eye sockets were a little wet, and a drop of tears slid down the corner of her eye onto the pillow, leaving a mark of different shades on it.
"When I first arrived in the United States, I had to go to school, and at the same time I had to work part-time to earn my own tuition and living expenses... I had to go to class during the day and work all night at night. Sometimes I didn't close my eyes after the whole day... It didn't take long , My mother became ill due to years of depression, and suddenly she couldn't afford it. At that time, I was almost crazy... I don't know how I survived, every time I was about to collapse, I would Thinking of you."
"I want to make myself stronger and better, and be able to give you the happiness you want. At that time, I can return to your side... So, whenever I can't hold on, I will be in I kept telling myself that as long as I persisted for a while, I would be one step closer to the day I saw you. Rourou, do you know how important you are to me? You are the only one I love in my life People are also people I am willing to protect with my whole life... "
"Actually, that time at your house was not our first reunion. I have returned to China long ago. I wanted to see you, but I was afraid to see you. Because I was afraid... I was afraid that you would not forgive me, and I was even more afraid of you I already have someone else by my side. Therefore, I can only hide secretly in a corner where you cannot see, and pay attention to you silently. When I saw you at your house that day, you knew how much I am Are you happy? But... you still refuse to forgive me. "
"I see, don't say any more... In fact, I've already forgiven you." Su Rourou's tears couldn't stop flowing down again, "It's just... I'm just mad at you for lying to me..."
Luo Yichen tentatively stretched out his hand in the darkness, and gently wiped away the tears on her face: "I admit, this matter is my fault. But... I was just too scared and uneasy. Ever since I was a child, I am confident about everything, but only for you... I have no confidence at all. "
"Seeing you getting so close to Ke Shaoze and He Yanzhi, and thinking that they have been by your side for so many years, I feel nervous and scared for no reason. I'm afraid that in a moment of my inadvertence, you will be with them ... As long as I think of the picture of you with other men, I will go crazy... "
"I said before that Ke Shaoze and I are just good brothers, and He Yanzhi and I are just good sisters. We were in the past, we are now, and we will be in the future..." Su Rourou emphasized again in a low voice.
Luo Yichen acted as if he didn't hear what she said, and said to himself: "Since I was a child, I always like to lie to you and make fun of you... But why do you only see the surface of things? Can't you put your heart into it?" Feeling, my love for you? Even if I cheat you occasionally, it's just because I love you so much... don't want to lose you... I really don't want to lose you... "
Tears flooded from the corners of her eyes again, Su Rourou wrapped her arms around his waist unconsciously: "Luo Yichen, I'm sorry... I shouldn't just think about myself."