Hou Lihen didn't know how painful Hualing Luoyan felt.
Hou Lihen could tell just by looking at the photo how indifferent he was at that time.
Hualing Luoyan was beside him, smiling so brightly, but he couldn't smile.
At that time, Hualing Luoyan liked to hold his hand, but he was always unwilling to let her hold his hand in a crowd.
At that time, because of reality, he was rejecting his inner feelings and told himself that he couldn't like it.
He regarded Hualing Luoyan as a naive child.
Sometimes he can't understand, can a person really like another person like this
Later, he realized that a person can become very crazy if he likes or loves someone.
Later, he went crazy for Hua Ling Luoyan, and he has remained crazy to this day.
At that time Hualing Luoyan gave him all her passion and love.
He didn't cherish her at that time, but now he wants to return all his love and madness to her.
Until now, he still thinks about that simple good girl, his Yan'er.
At that time, he was thinking about reality and that he couldn't be with Yan'er for fear of hurting Yan'er.
Now he understands that what he was thinking about at that time was not what he should be thinking about. If he could like and fall in love, he should be together.
If time goes back to that time, even if he leaves the family, he will still be with the one he loves.
He didn't understand it at that time, so every time he thinks about it now, his heart aches.
Whenever he closes his eyes, he will think of that time.
"Ahen, do you like me? If you tell me what's wrong with me, I'll change it. I'll try to become better, okay?"
"Ahen, can you stay with me?"
"Ahen, you have worked very hard, and I feel very sorry for you."
"Ahen, I'll stay with you and won't make you work so hard..."
"Ahen, I can learn to cook. I will cook for you. Ahen, I will wash your clothes..."
"Ahen, what do you like? How about I become like that?"
"Ahen, I want to see you, Ahen, I really miss you, I really miss you...Ahen, I like you, you have to believe that I am sincere to you..."
"Ahen, can you give me a hug? I want a hug..."
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Now he can recall many, many words as soon as he closes his eyes, so clearly. Although thirty years have passed, it still seems to him like yesterday.
He wished he could go back to that time, hold Yan'er in his arms, be with her, and never hurt her again.
Whatever she wanted, he gave it to her.
She wanted company, and he stayed with her.
He would accompany her wherever she wanted to go...
What she likes most is hugging, she says it makes her feel safe.
He wanted to go back and give her all the hugs, no other woman but her.
Hou Lihen's eyes hurt so much as he thought about it.
Why can people only understand some truths and appreciate them when they reach a certain stage
"Ahem..."
As soon as he felt uncomfortable, Hou Lihen's physical injury broke out and he started to cough.
He felt that the pain in his body was not as good as the pain in his heart. He could not turn back time, he could only become crazy himself.
At that time, he thought he was the one who left first, and he was afraid that he would hurt Yan'er.
But when he left first and left Yan'er behind, she stood there crying, just looking at his back lonely.
He thought he was cool and didn't care, so he didn't look back.
Maybe he was used to it, and when he turned his head, she was right behind him.
But he didn't expect that the time he really left was when Hualing Luoyan really left him.