That was something Hou Lihen understood only after a long time, but he understood it too late.
When he wanted to love Hualing Luoyan again, Hualing Luoyan already belonged to someone else.
Moreover, that person is still King Guoying, and he is a king. He cannot use his power to take him away from him.
And Xuanjun Nobuhiro is still his brother.
So Hou Lihen could only suffer from insomnia...
But later he went crazy, and Hualing Luoyan became his obsession.
…
Hou Lihen looked at the photo, tears falling drop by drop on the photo.
Hou Lihen quickly wiped it carefully in a panic.
These photos hide all his beautiful memories, because at that time, Hualing Luoyan loved him and was truly good to him.
Until now, Hou Lihen can't let go.
Because he didn't treat Hua Ling Luoyan easy, and it was Hua Ling Luoyan who he hurt, who left first.
So no one knows how uncomfortable and painful his heart is.
He thought he could fall in love with other women, but he found that he only had Hualing Luoyan in his heart. When he looked at other women, no matter how beautiful they were, no matter what their backgrounds were, no matter how intelligent they were, he felt that they were not as good as those of other women. Like cabbage.
In his heart, there is really only one Hualing Luoyan.
This feeling was painful, but Hou Lihen couldn't control his heart.
He hated himself for why he had to consider so many realistic factors in the first place.
Sometimes Hou Lihen wished he could beat himself, and even thought about going back in time, when he told himself not to consider reality.
It's a pity that there is no if...
Hou Lihen's hand holding the photo was shaking slightly.
These things are the most precious in his heart.
Later, he really just wanted to take back Yan'er. What he thought was that Yan'er loved him, and as long as he treated her well, he would definitely be able to warm her heart again.
Because he couldn't bear to see the girl who loved him give birth to children for other men.
Especially that person is Xuanjun Nobuhiro, the king of the empire.
In the earliest days, when he was with Hualing Luoyan, he was easily indecisive, thinking about this and that.
But later he made sure of his own mind and realized that it was really bad for him to be indecisive at that time, so he made a decision later.
But he didn't expect that Hualing Luoyan would also die in the end.
"Ahem..."
"Yan'er, I'm sorry, I'm sorry..."
"Yan'er, I've gone crazy. I'm so crazy now that it's impossible to wake up. As long as I live for one day, I won't be able to wake up."
Hou Lihen felt that he could no longer think about it. If he continued to think about it, he would not be able to bear it and would be suffocated.
Hou Lihen put the photos away carefully before staggering out of the study.
…
in hospital
Nalan Yunqing was really unwilling to wake up instinctively.
Even in his sleep, the scene of Feng Sujin shooting him and trying to kill him flashed over and over in his mind, as well as the scene of Feng Sujin jumping into the moat.
Every time those scenes flashed through his mind, it hurt him terribly.
I obviously don't want to think about it, but this scene flashes through my mind over and over again.
"No, no... Sujin... don't jump, don't jump..."
Nalan Yunqing kept shouting in his heart.
He was usually introverted and rarely moved by anything, but what happened on the city wall really impacted Nalan Yunqing's soul and made him unable to rest at ease.
If it hadn't been for him, if he had stopped it in time, if he had woken up earlier... Feng Sujin wouldn't have had to do this.