This soft call could not help but blurt out.
Surprise, surprise, and excitement flashed in Kong Ling's eyes one after another. However, a gust of breeze came, as if it blew away the soft light from his eyes, and even took away the warmth from his body.
She just wanted to walk up, but when she met his eyes with the coldness and coldness, she stopped.
It was obvious that she had already felt the joy at the moment he saw her, but in the blink of an eye, it turned into an illusion.
"Xiaoyan, what are you doing here?" Kong Ling smiled lightly, his tone was not warm, as if he was just an ordinary friend.
A lot of words wanted to rush out, but at this moment, she seemed to be strangled by her throat, and those words could not be said.
"I—" She pursed her lips, and then spoke quickly and authentically, "Listen to him and they said that you came out for a free clinic. I was afraid that you would be too busy, so I came out to have a look. Anyway, I am free when I am free."
The ethereal gaze swept across her empty hands, knowing that she was lying. After getting along for so long, once she lied, the thumb and index finger of her right hand would involuntarily pinch the index finger of her left hand.
Although she didn't know why she made up this lie, he would not expose her, just like in the past.
"It's almost there, you can go back when you go to one more house. If you have something to do, go ahead first." He still smiled politely.
Cheng Yanluo was stunned for a moment, her pupils shrank, as if something was wrong
That's right, just now he looked at himself in the eyes, there was no affection in the past, and some were just cold, as if he was treating a familiar stranger.
Why did it suddenly become like this
She couldn't figure it out.
At this time, Kong Ling turned around and was about to leave, her brain was hot, and she couldn't care about much, and immediately rushed in front of him, blocking his way.
"Xiaoyan, is there anything else you can do?" A hint of surprise flashed in Kong Ling's eyes, but he quickly returned to calm.
"I have something to tell you." She ignored the unfamiliar feeling that the ethereal spirit gave her just now, and gathered up the courage to look up at him.
Ethereal looked elsewhere, "Okay, you say."
"I, I—" She opened her mouth, but seemed to be stuck, not knowing where to start.
"If it's not very important, wait until you think about it next time." Kong Ling had a hunch that the words she wanted to say would change the decisions he had made in the past few days.
After saying this, he didn't hesitate to cross her.
"It's very important!" she said quickly.
He stopped.
She circled back in front of him again, raised her head, and there were firm ripples in her eyes.
"Murong, during my time with the army, I thought about a lot of things. I thought about the days when we were in the division, you told me to leave, and the years I spent alone after you left."
"These memories, in the past few years when you were gone, I have been recalling them repeatedly. At that time, every time I remembered them, I resented you once, and felt that you personally destroyed the beauty of our past and the vision of the future. But now , I'm thinking more about how you have been in the past few years when I haven't been by your side."
When she said this, water light flashed in her eyes.
She closed her eyes, and when she said the first sentence, she suddenly realized that it was not so difficult to express her thoughts. She let go of her tense emotions and continued speaking calmly.
"After going through these few battles, I found out that in fact, you've had a hard time and it's not easy in the past few years, and you can understand your feelings when you made this decision in the first place."
Only when people are immersed in the situation can they truly empathize.
"If it were me, maybe I would make the same decision as you, but you are more righteous than me and dare to take on the responsibility. Although I have resented you and hated you for so many years, but at this stage, I found that , Personal love and hatred in the country and the world, between life and death, is really too small."
Kong Ling looked at her in astonishment. He didn't expect to hear these words from her mouth. He thought that he would never hear it again in his life. It was like waves were surging, rolling, and surging his whole heart.
She looked at him reproachfully, "Murong, I'm sorry, I'm too selfish, I'm still living in the past, I don't want to break free and live with you, I just think about my own grievances."
"Although I can't forgive you for abandoning me back then, but at this moment, I don't want to lie to myself again."
She said this for a while, and the ethereal heart suddenly mentioned it and looked at her fixedly.
"In the years you were away, I never stopped thinking about you."
"In the past few years of the reunion, I have never let go of my feelings for you."
These two sentences sounded like violent thunder blasting in his ears, and he felt his feet were slack, as if in a dream.
It turned out that Xiaoyan was just like him. His heart was surrounded by heat, and he was ecstatic. He moved his lips to say something, but the words seemed to be restrained. Pour off, then freeze to freeze.
At this time, Cheng Yanluo didn't notice the change in his expression, she concentrated the remaining courage in her heart, and then went out.
"Murong, I want to give our future a chance to start over, would you like to?"
She mustered what little courage she had left to say the words hard but simply.
She knows that most women are ashamed to express their love boldly, but she never feels that taking the initiative is a mistake.
If you feel that in this life, you have to be this person, what does it matter if you lose face, and if you let him throw it back in the future, it will be even.
However, these words seemed to dissipate in the air, silently, without getting any response.
She couldn't help looking up at him, and what caught her eye was his calm and indifferent appearance, and she subconsciously tensed.
At this moment, she heard him speak.
"Xiaoyan, I am surprised and happy at the same time. You will say this to me calmly. Thank you for understanding me."
She fixedly looked at him.
"But, I'm sorry, I may have no way to go with you again."
Kong Ling lowered his eyes and didn't look at her. He spoke word by word without rushing. He felt a little bit of lingering in his heart, but on the surface he still looked calm.
"Why, why?" She widened her eyes in disbelief.
"When a person no longer wants to spend the rest of his life with a person, what do you think is the reason?" Kong Ling did not answer her question directly.
why
Because I don't love it anymore.
Cheng Yanluo bit her lip and looked at him with red eyes, "You mean, you don't have a place for me in your heart, do you?"
"Yes." He pursed his lips.
In a split second, the sky fell apart, and she could no longer see anything in her eyes, only his words echoed clearly and decisively in her ears.
"Time has exhausted my feelings for you. I have no way to go with you. I'm sorry, Xiaoyan."
I'm sorry, Xiao Yan.
He said sadly in his heart.