Nan Yan felt suffocated all of a sudden.
She couldn't believe her ears, and stared at Zhu Feng's tall back with wide eyes. At this moment, she even felt a little dark in front of her eyes.
After an unknown amount of time, Zhu Feng slowly turned around.
When Nan Yan saw the expression on his face, she was terribly cold.
This is not Zhu Feng's expression now, but Zhu Feng's expression at that time when he heard the news.
From the body to the heart, it is completely cold.
Nan Yan suddenly trembled.
Qin Ruolan.
She actually—? !
I couldn't believe it. I always thought that she was a fight between Zhu Feng and the prince, but it turned out that she had nothing to do with the prince from the beginning to the end.
She is going to enter the palace and become Emperor Gao's woman!
And when Zhu Feng touched her, it was equivalent to—
Nan Yan's voice became hoarse: "How could this be?"
"how so… "
Zhu Feng also repeated softly: "At that time, I asked myself countless times, how could this happen?"
Nan Yan said eagerly: "Concubine Ning, does she know?"
"..."
"Does she think she will marry the prince, or—"
Zhu Feng sneered, turned to look at her, and said, "Silly girl, you are still the same, you only think of people's best."
Nan Yan suddenly shuddered.
Her whole body became completely cold, she said softly: "She..."
"Of course she knows." Zhu Feng said: "Entering the palace, or marrying the prince, it is impossible for Qin Zhengqi to hide this from his daughter. She knew it from the beginning to the end, and even from a long time ago, she knew it. After her aunt, Concubine Qin passed away, Emperor Gao missed Concubine Qin very much, and her father had already planned to let her enter the palace when she was older, so as to relieve Emperor Gao's pain of lovesickness."
Nan Yan said tremblingly: "So she—"
"She lied to me."
Zhu Feng said solemnly: "She just lied to me like this, and let me foolishly jump into her trap."
"..."
"When I was locked in the prison and looked at the small skylight above my head, I kept asking, why did this happen?"
"..."
"It's just that no one answered me."
"..."
"Afterwards, I won't ask any more."
He said these words very lightly, with a feeling of calmness, but Nanyan knew that he was so calm, and he did not know how many times he had experienced crying blood and how many bone-chilling sufferings. Only in exchange.
It's not that he is calm, but that he let himself accept the fact that he has nothing.
Nan Yan only felt that her eyes were burning.
She also seemed to understand why Zhu Feng had such deep feelings for Qin Ruolan.
This kind of feeling is not only the liking when you were young, the love of mutual gratification, but also the despair and helplessness after being betrayed by the loved one, which is almost destructive to anyone blow.
Some people may really not be able to hold on, so they just give up on themselves and let their own lives be smashed to pieces.
As for Zhu Feng, he persevered.
It was also because he persevered that, in his life, even in his heart, this deep-rooted scar was bound to be left. Inside the scar, the words "Qin Ruolan" were written all over.
What she brought to him were memories of love and memories of hate.
After a long time, Nan Yan said softly: "Then, what did the emperor go through in prison?"
"..."
Zhu Feng was silent for a while, and said, "I don't remember."
"..."
"After all, I'm still out of prison."
"Emperor Gao, I still forgive you."
"Perhaps, it's just because I had a high reputation in the north at that time, and Emperor Gao was getting old, and the generals who followed him through life and death were also getting old. He needed someone to guard the north and pacify the frontier for him."
Hearing these words, Nan Yan only felt sad.
If it was Zhu Feng in the past, he would definitely feel that he was still appreciated by Emperor Gao.
However, after being betrayed by Qin Ruolan, he no longer even dared to believe that his father would appreciate him, but only thought that he was of value to him.
How heartbroken and painfully self-denial is this, the result of this disposition
Nan Yan said again: "Then, King Wei..."
Zhu Feng's eyes turned cold again.
After being silent for a while, he said: "I stayed in prison for two full months. When I was released from prison, they told me that she was pregnant."
"..."
"So, I married her."
It turned out that Zhu Chengxuan came that night.
Nan Yan finally understood why Zhu Feng didn't like him anymore.
This child has a gentle temperament, unlike him, he likes medical skills rather than military skills. These are not the reasons why a father doesn't like his son.
The real reason is that this son was born that night.
To Zhu Feng, that night was humiliating, it was a painful memory of being betrayed by the one he loved, and this son was born that night, it was too cruel for him.
Every time he saw this child, he would think of everything he had experienced.
It's like tearing open your own wound bloody.
Nan Yan only felt that tears were about to come out, she subconsciously turned her head away, the tears slid down and fell to the ground with a patter.
Zhu Feng looked down at her.
He said in a hoarse voice, "Do you feel sorry for me?"
Nan Yan wiped the corners of her eyes, then turned to look at him.
She really felt sorry for him, but she couldn't say such words.
For so many years, Zhu Feng has come here like this. He is stronger than anyone else. A strong man like him does not need anyone's pity.
Nan Yan said softly: "Your Majesty, I..."
Zhu Feng didn't seem to want to listen to her, so he interrupted her directly, saying, "I don't feel sorry for myself."
"yes… "
"I just feel that I hate myself."
"The emperor..."
"Knowing that there are powerful enemies around, but still take it lightly, and even trust the prince's party easily."
"..."
"I deserve it!"
When he said this, he almost gritted his teeth.
Nan Yan felt her heart was about to break, she took a step forward, and said: "Your Majesty, don't say that, there is nothing in this world that 'knows', no one is God, and they cannot open their eyes; I am not qualified to scold others, because not everyone has their eyes open."
"..."
"Judging the time from the perspective of hindsight was originally unfair to myself at the time!"
Zhu Feng looked down at her.
Nan Yan said seriously: "The emperor once used his sincerity, there is nothing wrong with that."
"..."
"It's wrong, it's the person who lied to you."
Zhu Feng suddenly hugged her into his arms, and Nan Yan felt his arms tremble for the first time. All along, it was his arms that gave him strength, but at this time, he seemed to want to hug her yourself, to gain strength.
He said in a deep voice, "Why didn't you meet at that time?"