The happiness she thought she had grasped collapsed into ruins in an instant, and in the end, only a mess was left.
This feeling is like being slapped hard in the face...
It was painful and unbearable.
Ye Yan's chest felt like it was torn apart alive.
She was begging him to let go...
I'm asking him...
"... How long do you need?" He could give her time, but that was just time. It was impossible for him to really let go!
Shu Nian didn't say anything. How long would it take? Even she herself didn't know how long it would take.
Some scars are never so easy to heal; and some things are never so easy to forget.
She only pried Ye Yan's hand, thinking that he would struggle, but this time, he suddenly let go. His long fingers slid from her wrist, leaving only a cool feeling.
The empty feeling on his wrist made Shu Nian's heart ache, and for a moment he felt the air around him become much colder...
if…
If Ye Yan really no longer exists in her future life, will her world become as gray and bleak as before
Will it become like a stagnant pool of water, unable to create any ripples
——
Shu Nian took a shower, changed her clothes and came out, her face was not much better than before. She walked out of the room and saw Ye Yan sitting on the sofa in the living room. He was very quiet, very quiet. From her angle, she could only see his profile, with a heavy haze.
As if he noticed that she had come out, he came back to his senses and looked up at her.
The two of them looked at each other, and Shu Nian's nose started to turn sour again. She was afraid that she would lose control of her emotions, so she turned her face away, walked over, and sorted out the books scattered on the sofa.
After everything was packed up, Ye Yan stood up and said, "I'll take you there."
Not retaining.
But to see each other off.
There was no negotiation in his low voice. Moreover, as he spoke, he had already walked to the entrance and changed his shoes.
Looking at the back, Shu Nian's lips trembled, but in the end he said nothing. He just held the book and followed quietly.
The rain was still falling. On such a night, there were basically not many people coming in and out of the community, and the surrounding atmosphere seemed particularly quiet, so quiet that it made people feel depressed.
Ye Yan was holding an umbrella and Shu Nian was walking on his right.
There was a gap between the two people. It was only a few centimeters apart, but it seemed like there were thousands of mountains and rivers between them, difficult to cross.
It's like a heartache...
Once it's torn, it's always difficult to sew it back together.
The rain gradually got heavier, but the umbrella was not big. Ye Yan was tall, so the umbrella could only accommodate him. Moreover, he intentionally left more than half of the space for Shu Nian, so after a few steps, his shirt was soaked by the rain. Shu Nian noticed it as soon as he raised his eyes, and was slightly startled for a moment, and deliberately moved his body out.
She clearly wanted to make more space for him, but in Ye Yan's eyes, this small action seemed like an avoidance of disgust.
His eyes darkened, and he raised his hand, grabbed her shoulders and pulled her back.
He is very strong.
Shu Nian could even feel that the big hand falling on her shoulder seemed to dig into her shoulder blade.
"No need to hide so quickly!" Ye Yan's voice was cold, which was the armor he had after being injured, "... I won't do anything to you again..."
After saying that, he did not stop, but took his hand back. He clenched it into a heavy fist, hanging it at his side, very tight.
obviously…
He misunderstood.
Shu Nian knew.
His lips moved as if he wanted to explain, but in the end, he stopped talking.
After that, the two of them didn't say anything along the way. The short distance was quickly covered. When they arrived at the base of the community where Shu Nian lived, Shu Nian still didn't look up at him, "I'll go up first."
Shu Nian walked away, not daring to stay any longer.
Ye Yan's heavy gaze locked onto the figure, watching her getting farther and farther away from him, watching her becoming less and less clear in his eyes. He suddenly threw away his umbrella and took a few steps forward.
Shu Nian vaguely heard footsteps coming up from behind him, and they were getting faster and heavier.
is it him
She instinctively turned around, and Ye Yan's slender figure suddenly loomed over her. The next moment, before she could come to her senses, he had already cupped the back of her head with one hand, and his other hand around her waist, not giving her any chance to move. The passionate, oppressive, and painful kiss came straight at her like a storm.
Shu Nian's mind was blank. All he could breathe was the fresh scent of his body, mixed with the salty taste of raindrops.
My lips were swollen and painful from his kiss.
She struggled in pain, but he seemed unable to sense her resistance at all, as if only a deeper kiss and a stronger demand could slightly alleviate the strong feeling of powerlessness in his heart.
"Ye Yan..." When Shu Nian was almost unable to breathe due to the kiss, he finally found a chance to break away an inch and called him with a broken voice.
Ye Yan then pulled away from her lips. His eyes were filled with scarlet, as if he was trying hard to restrain himself from continuing.
"Only one week!" Ye Yan stroked her cheek gently with his thumb, but his words were very serious, too serious to be refuted. "After one week, no matter you are calm or not, you must come back. Come back to me!"
———
Shu Nian lay in bed in a daze all night.
The next day, when she got up, it was still light. She touched her phone and took a look, then she remembered that it had run out of battery. She plugged it in, and the phone lit up. She leaned against the bedside, looking out the window and waiting.
After the phone turned on automatically, messages kept coming in.
She took it and took a look. Most of them were reminders of missed calls. There were also some messages from Xiong Wanting. She had obviously forced Hu Yang to get the details, and every message was filled with worry.
Shu Nian looked at those words of comfort, and remembered how he had once lay in a pool of blood in despair, and how he had been pushed into the emergency room helplessly...
Finally, I was forced to have my fallopian tube removed...
At that time, she was only 18 years old. The ridicule from classmates and teachers, the tragedy of her family, and the hopelessness of the future almost pushed her to the brink of death.
The source of all this tragedy comes from Hu Yang and his people.
And Ye Yan...
Ye Yan is actually one of them...
Shu Nian felt that she might just have had a dream, a nightmare. She hoped that everything would return to the way it was when she woke up. However, reality was cruel after all. Just like when she was on the operating table that year, she also hoped that everything was a dream, but the cold scalpel had already made her sober—all this was not only not a dream, but... she could never go back to the past...