Song Qingwan laughed and said:
"At that time, I had a bad temper and was spoiled by you. When people said that, I argued with them, saying that I was their aunt! But who would believe it? People in this circle are only willing to listen to what they want to hear."
"I had such a hard time at that time, Lu's had already given me a splitting headache, I even thought about dying, I didn't graduate, my future was gone, I couldn't draw, I couldn't be happy anymore , I have to be busy with some trivial matters every day, and I have to be both a father and a mother to bring up the two children. I look for people to trust, find the best school for them, and try to give them the best. life, when I think of you occasionally, I will cry so hard that I can't sleep all night."
"A bunch of things have come up. I don't have any experience, so I can only grit my teeth and endure it. The Lu family is like this, and the two little guys are also like this. I don't understand anything, so I can only grit my teeth and persevere."
"At the most difficult time, I have been so busy that I haven't slept for five or six days. I am wronged and irritable. I think I should bear all this alone. At that time, I really thought about giving up on them. To tell you the truth, I even found an orphanage at that time, but when the day came to send them there, I finally couldn’t bear it.”
Song Qingwan murmured: "It's not just because they are your children, brother, and it's not just to repay your kindness, because I'm their aunt... Dad doesn't care about them, you and sister-in-law are gone, so all they have left is my sister-in-law." I have only one family member, and I only have them. If I don’t care about them anymore, they are so small, what should they do... "
Song Qingwan didn't hate her at first.
Not hating that is not normal.
But after all, I still don't want to.
Probably since Lu Junhan and Lu Anran called her aunt for the first time, Song Qingwan couldn't break away from them for the rest of her life.
She later raised them not just to repay her brother's kindness, but more because she was their aunt.
She is their only relative.
"Then you should work harder to live..."
Lu Qidong felt complicated and unspeakable, took a deep breath, and said in a hoarse voice:
"You have worked so hard to bring them up. You have suffered so much when you were young, but now you have finally paid off your hardships. They have grown up, and it is time... Let them repay you."
"I probably just didn't enjoy the life of Qingfu."
Song Qingwan's eyes trembled, and she sighed:
"I've been too tired all my life. In the last month, I just want to relax a bit. I... don't want to suffer any more. I want to learn painting again. I'm afraid that if I don't learn now, I won't have time in the future."
Lu Qidong's eyes suddenly turned red, and the tears could no longer be stopped.
He moved his lips, as if he wanted to say something, but he didn't know what to say.
Song Qingwan was forced to give up her dream, and it is a good thing to regain her dream now.
If she spent the last period of her life by painting, she would definitely be able to leave peacefully and happily.
But they all wanted her to live.
Live in pain.
Lu Anran's eyes were red, as if she couldn't take it anymore, she turned and left crying.
Lu Junhan pursed his thin lips, his eyes were dark and deep, but the smooth jaw line was very tight.
Song Qingwan is afraid of pain now, she is too tired to live, and just wants to die happily.
They wanted her to live, even if it was painful, as long as she was there.
But they owe her too much. It can be said that Song Qingwan's original splendid life was ruined by them.
But Song Qingwan didn't complain, at least for so many years, she didn't complain in front of them, and she didn't take the nearly twenty years of kindness to let them repay her and let them appreciate her.
The elder brother adopted her to treat her as his own younger sister, and he didn't need her to repay the kindness.
Song Qingwan has raised them for nearly twenty years, and she also treats them as her own nephews and nieces, and she doesn't need them to repay her kindness.
All she wants now is to die in peace.
But they were not even qualified to persuade her to survive.
Lu Qidong's eyes were red, looking at the pale and weak Song Qingwan, as if he had figured something out, he sighed, "You did it on purpose, right?"
Song Qingwan remained silent.
Lu Qidong murmured: "Deliberately talking about the past, to make us feel guilty and sad, and stop forcing you to live, right?"
Song Qingwan sighed quietly, "Brother, you are still so smart. It's not that I don't want to live anymore, I know, I really can't be saved, this month, I just want to be comfortable, not to go to work, not to go to work. Thinking about other things, not treating illnesses, just painting with all my heart, I want to go back to the former Song Qingwan who loves painting and is no longer so rational and strong, brother, you should be happy for me?"
"I can only be happy if you survive!"
Lu Qidong looked at her, his voice was extremely hoarse, "As long as you are alive, there is hope! As long as you are alive, you have the possibility of a cure!"
Lu Qidong took several deep breaths, "... Just like little Anran, her disease has been present since she was born. There were only ten cases of such a rare gene defect disease in the world at that time."
Song Qingwan was stunned suddenly, and looked at Lu Qidong in disbelief.
Even the dark and deep pupils of Lu Junhan who was standing at the door shrank slightly.
Lu Qidong didn't notice her abnormality, and continued to say:
"At that time, the doctor also said that she was so weak that she would die at any time, and she would not live for a few days at all, but I didn't believe it. She couldn't live, so I spent money to let her live, using the best equipment, the best medicine, and the most A professional doctor can live every day! But you see, she has survived for so many years, she really survived, now more than ten years have passed, technology is developing rapidly, and drugs for this disease have been developed Now, she has been completely cured now, and she doesn't have to worry about it anymore, so as long as she lives... "
"Gene defect..." Song Qingwan was stunned, and she didn't listen much to the words that followed. After a while, she recovered from the shock, "What gene defect disease? Lu Anran has a gene defect? Why didn't I know about it? ?”
Gene defect disease, if this disease is not completely cured, it will be with you for a lifetime.
Generally, people with genetic defects will be very weak and weak, and usually do not live long.
At that time, she only knew that Lu Anran's health was very bad when she was a child, she was very weak, and her face was always pale. At that time, Lu Qidong only said that this was a weak disease brought out from the mother's womb.
At that time, Song Qingwan thought that premature babies would indeed be weak and sickly, so she didn't think deeply about it at all.
Lu Qidong was stunned suddenly, and looked at her fixedly, with surprise on his face:
"You don't know? Didn't Little Anran tell you?"