Is it possible that one more day will bring more happiness and less pain of lovesickness in the future
"One more day, and I will have less regrets. I just want to be your wife for one day." Ruxue told me in the morning light of the next day.
What is it like to be a wife? I had no idea at all, so I was dragged into the room by Ruxue in a daze. The table in the room had already been set with steaming breakfast. Ruxue served me a bowl and watched me eat it gently. .
"Being a wife means cooking for your husband every morning." Ruxue told me.
After dinner, I did my morning homework. Ruxue was very busy and found my dirty clothes from somewhere. While watching me doing my morning homework, she washed my clothes next to me.
I was a little embarrassed because I found that she was washing the underwear for me that I had changed out last night and hadn't had time to wash yet. I hurriedly went to grab them, but Ruxue told me that today she is my wife.
Just one day? Thinking of this, I was a little distracted, but I forced myself to calm down and not think about these sad things.
Since there is only one day, live it happily. Didn’t I tell Sixth Sister before? A happy day is also a happy day.
But every moment of the day, I always lamented, is this my Chen Chengyi’s wife? The eyebrows are picturesque, the tenderness is like water, the warmth of washing hands to make soup, the gentle words of ironing, is this in a dream
At dusk, Ruxue and I sat in a small pavilion by the lake. In front of us, there was a small stove, on which was heating a pot of soup that Ruxue had cooked for me.
It was Ruxue who asked to have dinner here. She said that this lake has been her favorite place since she was a child, so she asked someone to help build a pavilion here. If she only had one day, she hoped to spend the last time with her lover in her most beautiful place. Spend time in your favorite place.
At this time, it was already early winter, and the red leaves on the mountain opposite the lake had not yet dispersed. Under the setting sun, it was so beautiful that people were fascinated by it. A gust of wind blew, and the flying red leaves fell on the lake, creating waves of water ripples. , just like my heart, at this moment, is just for the woman beside me.
"Ruxue?" I called softly.
"Huh?" Ruxue leaned on my shoulder, her voice a little lazy.
"I thought you were asleep, why not..."
"Not as good as what?"
"They all said that you sing very well. Can you sing one for me?" I suggested. To be honest, the past six months have been too fast. There are too many things that we have not done together. As of now, I I haven’t heard Ruxue’s singing yet.
"Okay." Ruxue replied softly.
Then in this small pavilion by the lake, looking at the red leaves all over the mountain and the quiet Yueyan Lake at the foot of the mountain, I heard Ruxue's singing for the first time.
half cold half warm autumn
Iron by your side
Quietly watching the flowing light dance
The red leaves in the wind
Makes my heart full of emotions
Half drunk and half awake
I can't hold back my smile anymore
Let me be like the snow falling in the clouds
Kiss people's faces gently with ice
Bring out waves of affection
How much love is left in the world
Welcome a thousand changes
Do happy things with your lover, regardless of whether it is calamity or fate.
Like willow silk, like spring breeze
Spend spring with you
Just let you bury your head in the smoke
Let go of all the enthusiasm in your heart
Hug the spring rain
I was almost immersed in Ruxue's singing, but I was chewing the lyrics over and over again in my heart. Doing happy things with a lover, regardless of whether it is disaster or fate, is this the case for Ruxue and me? No matter what happens in the future, we love each other very much at the moment.
I was very familiar with the song, but I had forgotten where I had heard it. At this time, Ruxue gently put her head on my shoulder and said: "This is an episode from the movie we watched together. If it really happens every year in the future, I I can watch a movie with you, and I will try my best to remember the songs in each movie."
"Why do you need to remember?"
"People say that everyone has songs that belong to their own life. These are the songs that belong to my life." Ruxue said softly.
I held Ruxue's hand tightly.
The day passed by in such a hurry, and it was already night in a blink of an eye. As usual, I sent Ruxue back to her room. At this moment, my heart suddenly ached violently. After she entered the room, we were together from now on. We are no longer lovers. Tomorrow, I will go to Heiyan Miao Village with Master. Tomorrow, she will stay in the village and continue her protection.
We are at the end of the world from now on.
The rest should only be one movie every year.
"Go in." I looked at Ruxue and whispered. I wanted to walk away quickly, but I was afraid that my eyes would turn red the next moment.
Ruxue bit her lower lip, and after a long while, she said, "Why don't you go in with me. Today, I am your wife."
By the end, Ruxue's voice was almost inaudible, but I was stunned there, not daring to breathe for a long time.
I understand what Ruxue means by this. I ask myself that I am not Liu Xiahui, and lovers always want to be close, and to be closer, that is instinct. It’s just that we don’t have a future, and I don’t want to ruin Ruxue’s future happiness, so... .
At this moment, I could hardly hold myself back, so I rushed forward and hugged Ruxue, and asked in an almost trembling voice: "Is it really okay? Ruxue?"
Ruxue's body trembled a little in my arms. She was silent for a long time again before she said, "It's really okay. I have decided not to marry for the rest of my life."
My heart throbs for no reason. Will I never marry? No, I don't want Ruxue to repeat the tragedy of Ling Qing's death. Under the pressure of her parents, I don't know if I can keep a life-long marriage for her.
After all, we are mortals, not those otherworldly protagonists on TV. There is nothing else to do or feel in our entire lives except falling in love.
No matter how dreamy love is, it will be shattered in the face of reality.
I remembered what Sixth Sister said. She said she would try her best to admonish Ruxue. I pushed Ruxue away. Before I could speak, my heart twitched with pain. I took a deep breath and tried to hold back the heartache. The hoarse voice said to Ruxue: "Ruxue, no, that's not the case. We just want to love without regrets. This has nothing to do with future happiness. I am not great, nor am I a saint. I want to, but I can't .”
After saying that, I turned around and left. The moment I turned around, my tears fell down. What I can't do, there will always be someone who can do it in the future. Who is that? Who will Ruxue wash her hands and make soup for on that day
I didn’t want to think about it, but tonight, I couldn’t suppress this thought. I cried while walking. When I reached the place where Master and I lived, I almost burst into tears. I sat on the ladder in front of the stilted building and never stopped. Take one step with strength.
At this moment, a pair of warm hands rested on my shoulders, and I knew it was Master without looking back.
A figure sat down next to me and handed over a bottle of wine. I wiped my tears, took the bottle and took a big gulp. The rice wine in Miao Village is not strong, but such a big gulp Drinking it also made my whole body burn.
I almost have an irrepressible impulse to find Ruxue. When I think that she will be someone else's in the future, I will also be someone else's. We will be strangers from now on. Maybe we can't even maintain a movie agreement. I I was heartbroken and felt that I should risk my life.
"That year, Ling Qing and I parted at the train station after we had done a mission. At the station, Ling Qing asked me, have you really considered it? Your master is no longer here, even if your master doesn't have you. Yes, there are also your senior brothers. And you are the only one for me." Master's voice rang in my ears.
When he said this, he didn't look at me, but looked at the confused distant mountains in the distance, chewing on the tobacco stick, and his whole body fell into memories.
I was quiet. This was the first time I heard Master talk about his and Ling Qing's past.
"I said that I had thought about it. I didn't tell her how important the mountain meridian is in a meridian. I just told her that I have many brothers and sisters, but there is only one master who rescued me since I was a child and helped me avenge me. Master will leave first. It's entered my heart and I can't let it go." At this point, Master took the wine bottle in my hand and took a big sip of the wine.
"Master, do you love Grandma Lingqing?" I asked with a tearful tone, but the pain in my heart was still like fire, which made me uncomfortable.
"I'm old and I don't say whether I love or not. I only have one sentence, that is, she is the most important woman in my life. I can't stay with her, but I can give my life to her. Of course, this is I, you have parents, you have more responsibilities, you have to bear it by yourself no matter what you do in the future, this is your consequence." Master said quietly.
I held my head and murmured helplessly as I asked Master, "Then what should I do? My heart hurts?"
"My heart was so painful at that time. On the train back, I didn't eat or drink. I drank to survive. I even had a few fierce fights with several people and was locked up by the police. But as time went by, It will be better, or it won't hurt that much. I don't regret it, this is all the motivation that supports me." Master said to me.
I do not regret? Suddenly I felt I understood something, and the pain was no longer so severe.
Master and I were silent, both drinking wine one mouthful at a time. When the bottle of rice wine was almost empty, suddenly the whole village heard a heart-rending scream.