"Get up, brat, what are you talking about lying here?" I looked up in confusion, Master, it's Master who is back.
I was very surprised and asked almost with tears in my eyes: "Master, where have you been?"
The master remained silent but did not answer. Instead, he turned around and said, "I'm hungry. Let's go find something to eat."
"Master, you are right here. I will get it for you. You are right here." I stood up in a hurry and wanted to grab Master, but found that I had missed the opportunity. I was stunned. The master suddenly disappeared and turned into the disappearing little purple monster looking at me.
I was not afraid at all. I rushed forward with anger and madness, grabbed the little monster, and yelled: "Give me master back, give me back..."
"Give it back to me..." I thought like this, and then opened my eyes suddenly.
The familiar ceiling, the empty room, I still slept in the same place where I slept upside down last night. Where was the master, and where was the monster
My mind went blank, and I stood up numbly, but I heard the rustling rain outside. I'm afraid there won't be many spring rains, right? I was so bored in the house that I simply took a few steps out and sat in front of the stairs of the Bamboo Grove Villa. Looking at the drizzle, I suddenly felt that this location was very good.
Well, I'll just wait for Master here.
I have never understood the depth of my feelings for Master. Just like now, I have never shed a tear. I just feel that it is difficult to breathe. Sitting stupidly, I have temporarily lost the ability to think.
I always feel that I should do something, but I can't give up here because I have to wait for Master.
He said to Grandma Ling Qing: "I always live in Zhulin Xiaozhu." Fart, why aren't you back now? !
From sitting there in the morning until it was completely dark, well, one day passed, and I thought it was time for me to go to bed. But as soon as I stood up, my legs were so numb that I threw myself on the corridor. So, right here. Go to sleep.
When I woke up completely the next morning, there was sunshine in the sky again, which was a bit dazzling. I can’t remember how many times I woke up last night. Anyway, when I woke up this time, I always felt a little dazed and touched my face. There are still wet tears on it.
I had no idea what I was going to do and I didn't know I was hungry, I just felt like I was in pain and needed this pain to end.
I rushed to the kitchen and found a gourd. Master always used it to hold wine. My heart started to hurt again when I looked at it. Jiang Lizhun, how could you abandon me? You can tell me that you are leaving for a few years, as you did before in Beijing. You can say that you are old and should stop following Master. You can even dislike me, but how can you abandon me
How could you just walk away without a trace
Thinking of this, I opened the stopper of the gourd and started to drink wine for myself, and then I choked on the spicy wine. This old man used to be a bit good at wine, but the financial situation of our master and apprentice After that, it was just like that. I would be surprised if the spicy Daqu wine didn't choke me if I drank it down.
But the next moment I felt much better. A wave of hot drunkenness rushed into my head. My blood was hot and my heart was tight. I was able to laugh. I yelled in the empty kitchen: "Jiang Lizhun, you Come out, come out and I’ll buy you some good wine.”
But can anyone respond to me? I sneered, held the gourd in my hand and started drinking. I staggered to the corridor and continued drinking. The wine flowed from the corner of my mouth, to the nape of my neck, to the front of my chest, and soaked a large area of my clothes. But I just can't shed tears.
Under the stimulation of wine, I seemed to have some thinking ability. I always felt that I was too cowardly. I always felt that I should wash my face and go down the mountain to find the master. But I gritted my teeth with hatred, how could you remain silent? How could you abandon me? How could this be
Then, my memory began to blur. I remembered that I vomited and it was very uncomfortable, and then I just lay down on the ground somewhere. In the blur, I saw many shadows. On the other side of the deep pool, my little self I was practicing boxing. Master was practicing boxing in the yard, calling me a few words. In front of the corridor, Master and I had a pot of hot tea, as if we were playing chess again. In the hall, we were eating...
I didn't want to read any more, so I simply closed my eyes. The world was spinning for a while, which made me fall into a drowsy sleep, and I didn't know anything anymore.
When I woke up again, I was sleeping on the bed, my body was wiped clean, but I couldn't hide the smell of alcohol. I saw my mother sitting in front of me with tears in her eyes, holding a bowl of porridge, and my father He looked at me somewhat angrily.
"Son, are you awake? Want to eat something?" Mom said cautiously, holding the bowl.
I pushed the bowl away, I had no appetite.
"What's going on? Tell me about it?" Dad over there also cast an expectant look.
However, I remained silent.
I didn’t mean to make my parents angry, it wasn’t that I didn’t want to eat, I just couldn’t say anything and I wasn’t hungry.
In the silence, my dad got angry, rushed over and slapped me, yelling: "Look at you like this? Master Jiang has been taking you with you for decades just to make you like this? If you don't tell us, we won't either." I know that Master Jiang must have left, and we felt something was wrong that day. But don’t you think about who Master Jiang is? He always has his own pursuits. His kindness to you has been as great as the ocean in the past few decades. , what are you doing? Who are you angry with? I can’t beat you to death."
As he said that, my father's slap was about to fall again. I watched numbly, and my mother hurriedly pulled me away. While pulling me, she said to me: "Son, Mom knows you are feeling uncomfortable. Just eat something. Don't let me and your dad." It's so uncomfortable. It's not easy for your dad to carry you in from outside. Don't be angry with him. You can eat something. After you finish eating, mom will accompany you to find Master Jiang. You can always find it."
"Hey..." My dad also lowered his hand and said with some dejection: "Sanwa'er, Master Jiang is like a god in dad's eyes. The most important thing for them is fate. Fate is gone. Then they broke up. But you, you always have to live your life, you know? Master Jiang taught you so much and accepted you as his apprentice because he wanted you to inherit his things. This is a favor he gave you, and you have to repay the favor. Na."
My dad is such a loyal person. I felt a little sad. I wanted to cry, but I couldn't cry. My heart still hurt. I just picked up the bowl and ate the porridge my mother made for me.
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For my sake, my parents simply settled in Zhulin Xiaozhu. I really didn’t want them to worry about me when I was so old, but I just couldn’t suppress my sadness.
I didn't go looking for Master because I knew I couldn't find him. I had long figured out that he wanted to leave on purpose. I finally understood why he looked at me like that that day. It was clearly because there were tears in his eyes.
I don’t know what the reason was that allowed him to leave without saying goodbye. Maybe I’m such an old man, and the master leaves, so it can’t be called abandonment. But emotionally it’s really difficult for me to accept it. I stubbornly feel that leaving without saying goodbye is abandonment. .
I tried my best to figure out the reason, but I just couldn't figure it out.
Sad things always come one after another. On the third day after my parents lived here, Brother Chengxin came to the door. Like me, he had an unshaven beard. The first thing he said to me was: "My master is missing." Come on, stop talking. Looking at you, I know that your master is also missing. But Uncle Li asked us to wait at Zhulin Xiaozhu."
I didn't ask any more questions and was very silent. Brother Chengxin was also silent.
And in the afternoon of that day, Chengzhen came, crying and sobbing. Needless to say, the master was missing. Likewise, he was told to wait in the small bamboo forest.
Then, whether it was the second day or the third day, I can’t remember clearly, it was Qinhuai who came and pulled Hui Gen’er who kept crying. As soon as Hui Gen’er saw me, she threw herself into my arms and cried loudly. To: "Well, I'll never eat cake again."
Qinhuai told me with some sadness that one day, Uncle Hui came to him with Hui Gen'er in hand, saying that Hui Gen'er wanted to eat cake. He was not as rich as Qinhuai, so he asked Qinhuai to take Hui Gen'er to have a good meal. Cake, next... .
I know that Uncle Hui also disappeared in such an irresponsible way. I'm 13 years old, but it's a pity that Hui Gen'er is only 13 years old.
Finally, Ruxueruyue came.
I never wanted to see Ruxue in such a decadent manner, but I saw her like this. Ruxue didn’t say anything. Under the eyes of countless pairs of eyes, she hugged me from behind. She said, “Don’t look back, just treat it like this.” A friend wants you to cheer up and give you encouragement. My aunt is gone and I am very sad, but she mentioned something to us. She told me that I am afraid that according to your master's character, he will leave without saying goodbye. She said that you will be very sad. Sad, she asked me to come and tell you to cheer up.”
At this moment, I didn't look back, but tears finally slid down the side of my face. It turned out that crying felt so good.