Maybe my calm mood infected Brother Chengxin. At this moment, his eyes finally had a little focus and a little emotion, but those emotions were all pain. He covered his face and said: "Chengyi, doctors can't save people. It's very painful, especially when your important person falls in front of you like this, it's really painful, I'm very scared, very scared of Shen Xing..."
I stood up, looked up at the ceiling wordlessly, then suddenly pulled Brother Chengxin up, then dragged him to the bathroom in a few steps, turned on the faucet, pressed his head under the faucet, and let the cold water flow. Over his head!
Perhaps it was the icy cold water that stimulated Brother Chengxin. He became angry all of a sudden. He suddenly raised his head from under the faucet. Without thinking, he yelled: "What are you doing?" At the same time, his fists were also directed towards I waved.
I grabbed Brother Chengxin's fist and yelled at him: "Aren't you awake yet? All you can think about is that you can't save her, you can't save her! Shen Xing is so smart, if she blames you for not being able to save her, she won't In this way! Besides, it’s not completely hopeless now... You can be angry and sad, but you just can’t be decadent because of it, do you understand?"
I know the pain of falling into self-blame. I feel that I must wake up Brother Chengxin as soon as possible. I am worried about Shen Xing, but I am also worried that Brother Chengxin will sink.
Brother Chengxin is a smart man after all, or maybe the icy cold water calmed him down. He understood what I meant and suddenly calmed down. He took off his shirt, wiped his hair, put it on again, and tried his best to tidy it up. Tidy.
He did not rush out of the bathroom, but said to me: "Chengyi, give me a cigarette."
I ordered two, held one in my mouth, and stuffed one in his mouth...
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The waiting time is unbearable, every minute is like an hour passing, but the waiting time is also precious. You always hope that time can go slower, because being able to wait means that there is still hope.
Only when you are desperate will you give up waiting.
Time was ticking, ticking, and I was thinking over and over in my mind, why did Shen Xing choose to do that
Brother Chengxin has simply told me what happened, which makes people feel even more baffled.
After all, today is actually a happy day for Brother Chengxin. He and Shen Xing are very happy on their date. According to Brother Chengxin, they are getting along very close to being lovers.
Today's Shen Xing is not like the Shen Xing of the past. She seems to blend in with us enthusiastically, but in fact there is a thick wall in her heart.
"Today, Shen Xing doesn't have this wall in her heart, Chengyi, I can feel it! She took me through the streets and alleys, took me to see the place where she stayed in Tianjin when she was a child, and took me to eat only that piece of food She told me a lot about food that only old Tianjin people know, including where she had worked and what outstanding achievements she had made... Chengyi, today's Shen Xing really has no walls of heart." This is Brother Chengxin The exact words said to me.
I believe in Brother Chengxin, and I believe that the kind of happy walking around in the streets he describes exists.
They stayed together happily until the evening. Shen Xing suddenly asked Chengxin to accompany her to a place to drink. It was almost on the outskirts of the city. The place where Shen Xing asked Chengxin to accompany her to drink turned out to be an abandoned building. Shen Xing had just brought him to this place before. It was the place where she lived when she was a child.
"Actually, it was really nice to be there for a long time! Without the hustle and bustle of the city, there was just the breeze with the smell of the green grass of the land, and the moon above our heads. She and I really had a great time drinking." Until then. For a moment, Brother Chengxin felt that everything was normal and happy.
In the end, Brother Chengxin finished his five cans of wine. Shen Xing said that whoever finished the drink first would go down first. This was the rule of the game when she was a child. When she said this, Shen Xing still had half a can of beer left.
"I didn't suspect anything. I went down! From below, I couldn't see clearly what she was doing at the top. I could only see her feet swaying all the time. She looked very happy. I couldn't wait any longer. In ten minutes, she came down." This is Brother Chengxin's description of that time.
Next, they naturally embarked on the return journey. On the way back, Brother Chengxin kept thinking about whether to confess his love to Shen Xing, but he hesitated because they had not known each other for long, and besides, he began to feel that Shen Xing's interest had become low. .
Shen Xing seemed tired after walking for less than 5 minutes. She suddenly said to Brother Chengxin: "Su Chengxin, carry me on your back. I can't walk!"
Brother Chengxin felt a little strange, but he was also secretly happy. If she allowed him to carry him, did that mean she accepted him? But when he looked at Shen Xing, he looked really tired, even drowsy.
Not refusing, Brother Chengxin carried Shen Xing on his back and walked along the road with few vehicles on the outskirts of the city.
At this time, Shen Xing suddenly said to Brother Chengxin: "A long time ago, there was such a person who liked to carry me back and forth on this road. At that time, we had no money to live in the city."
When he heard these words, Brother Chengxin was silent. He didn't know what to respond. He guessed that Shen Xing was talking about someone very important to her. It should be a man. That man should be Shen Xing's close relationship with her. Yes.
In fact, at that time, Brother Chengxin felt a little sad, but he didn't mind. Who hasn't gone through it? Or, at this age, who has not loved
He just felt that Shen Xing's voice was a little vague. Was this vagueness an escape from the past? Brother Chengxin thought so at the time.
However, within a minute, Shen Xing suddenly said to Brother Chengxin: "Su Chengxin, I'm going to die."
"What are you talking about? You are fine, how could you be dying?"
"Su Chengxin, you are a good man. I wanted to accept you, but...but I can't pass my own test." Shen Xing's voice became more and more erratic.
Brother Chengxin was stunned for a moment, but then he said gently: "It's okay. No one asked you to pass any test now. You have plenty of time. I'll wait for you. Take your time."
"No... no time. I took a lot of sleeping pills." Shen Xing's voice gradually became inaudible. She lay on Brother Chengxin's back, and there was no movement. It's heavy.
This is a phenomenon that occurs when people lose control of their bodies! Brother Chengxin is a doctor, how could he not know
His expression suddenly changed. He immediately put down Shen Xing and pinched her pulse. Her heartbeat was slow. This was a typical sign of taking sleeping pills!
Brother Chengxin panicked. As he said, he thought of many ways at that time, such as inducing vomiting. Unfortunately, Shen Xing even lost part of his ability to swallow, and it was difficult to even open his teeth...
Brother Chengxin didn't dare to try any more. As a doctor, he knew that he couldn't waste every minute or second!
He almost ran into the road and stopped a passing car, and then sent Shen Xing to the hospital!
Yes, Shen Xing used her happiness for a day to confuse everyone, including Brother Chengxin, but no one knew the reason why she did this! Even I couldn't guess it. I could only vaguely feel that her behavior might be related to her conversation with Master Liu.
But didn't she say she would face it? Is it suicide to face it? That's the most cowardly escape, okay
I couldn't figure it out, so I was very anxious. In this sad silence, Brother Chengxin suddenly spoke: "Chengyi, do you know? That is a miracle. After the effect of the medicine has taken effect, she actually She spoke so many words to me soberly! You know? You can only do that with a very strong will, so... that must be what she really wanted to say to me."
When he said this, a drop of water fell on Brother Chengxin's hair that was not completely dry, just like a drop of tear.
The content of their conversation was so... I don't know how to describe it, so when faced with what Brother Chengxin said was a miracle, I couldn't get a word in, so I could only remain silent.
At this time, the lights in the emergency room went out and the doctor came out. Brother Chengxin and I both stood up and walked towards him. None of us dared to ask questions first, we just stood there in a daze.
The doctor pulled off his mask and said with a regretful expression: "I'm sorry, she took sleeping pills with alcohol, and the amount was too large. We did our best."
"No...it's not..." Brother Chengxin shook his head, half smiling but not smiling, half crying but not crying, and then he fell to his knees on the ground.