Guan Rui disappeared from Shen Xing's life, and Shen Xing felt that she had almost lost all of her life. She felt that she did not die with Guan Rui because she still cared about Guan Rui's parents.
Until one day, Guan Rui's parents kicked Shen Xing out of the house.
It was not because they wanted to drive Shen Xing out maliciously, but because the two kind-hearted old people felt that Shen Xing was "obsessed" with their son and would ruin her future life, so they hardened their hearts, endured their grief, and no longer accepted it. Shen Xing's care drove her out.
At that time, Shen Xing felt that her life was coming to an end, but the words of the boss of her company gave her new hope.
It was an angry argument, because Shen Xing was about to give up his life, so he didn't care about anything.
But it was because of that quarrel that she overheard her boss say something like this: "There will always be times when things go wrong in life. If you want everything to go your way, go to the ghost market and save yourself from looking like you are dying in the company. Go to the ghost market and get your man back."
Shen Xing's company is a very large multinational company. The boss's fortune-making experience is mysterious and full of legend. The boss likes Shen Xing, who is capable. Perhaps in his eyes, a subordinate who gives up a good future for a relationship and is not interested in work is a subordinate. It was extremely 'hateful', and he yelled these words out of anger.
Maybe ordinary people would not take this sentence seriously, or the imaginary ghost market is nothing more than a trading market, and they would not be interested in it at all, but Shen Xing was interested. She is a smart woman, and she knows that some bosses have made a fortune. The story was so legendary that she vaguely deduced that it was all related to the ghost market.
Next, there was a long period of searching. For half a year, Shen Xing was looking for what the boss called the ghost market. She was a smart girl. During those six months, her intelligence was brought to its fullest. She was extremely secretive. Shen Xing actually found out the location of the ghost market!
There is no need to explain the details in detail. In short, Shen Xing went through many hardships and finally went to the ghost market, where she gained important clues at the cost of ten years of life.
Following the clues, she found Master Liu and lent her ten years of life to Master Liu's daughter for another year. She finally found Guan Rui!
Master Liu used a secret technique to summon Guan Rui's soul and told Shen Xing that Guan Rui should actually enter reincarnation because he was not a lonely ghost and was about to enter reincarnation. His secret technique was a means of deception. Rui's soul must be carried by a Yang body in order to deceive the way of heaven.
And Guan Rui must leave within two years at most, otherwise he will never have the chance to reincarnate again.
What's the end result? It was Guan Rui's soul who met Shen Xing and expressed his willingness to accompany Shen Xing for another two years, and Shen Xing used his body to carry Guan Rui's soul.
During this period, it is a painful period. You cannot imagine getting along like that. Two people who love each other share the same body and are so close to each other, but they cannot even hug each other. During this period of time, Guan Rui advised The most important thing for Shen Xing is to let go of himself and start a new life.
And Shen Xing always smiled and dealt with it, but in fact, she had already made up her mind in her heart. Once Guan Rui's soul left, she would follow him, even if they could not meet.
Because Master Liu gave Shen Xing an example. Meeting people depends on fate. If your fate is over in this life, then no matter how deep the relationship is, you will never meet in the next life. It does not mean that your love is as deep as the sea. , we will definitely meet each other.
There are only two reasons why Shen Xing wants to leave. The first is that he will definitely live up to Guan Rui in this life. Second, what’s the point of a world without Guan Rui
This reminded me of the scene when I first met Shen Xing. No wonder I couldn't feel the presence of the ghost. It turned out that it was in Shen Xing's body. This kind of secret technique that can deceive even heaven, it is normal for it to deceive me.
And her weird listening smile was the dialogue between two souls in her body! And why she later became acutely aware that my spiritual sense was incredibly powerful was because there was a real ghost in her body.
When I was very young, when I listened to my mother telling me the story of Widow Zhou, I knew that ghosts have a pair of 'eyes' that are different from humans. They can see something special!
But no matter what, what a weird thing happened in the city? One body hides the souls of two people who love each other!
But even this kind of relationship can't last long. Shen Xing thought it could last two years, but the soul has to fit in with the body. It depends on fate. Obviously, Shen Xing's body is not that suitable for Guan Rui. It was a sad day, and he would be reincarnated again at any time. He quietly begged Master Liu not to tell Shen Xing, but to use secret techniques to keep him. He felt that Shen Xing had not let go of him.
But one time, such a conversation was overheard by Shen Xing. Of course, she couldn't hear what Guan Rui said. She could only hear Master Liu talking to himself, but she could always tell what happened. She If you hear the words, your soul will be blown away if you are not careful.
That was the day before she was to take us out.
At that time, Shen Xing decided to let Guan Rui leave. It can be said that going on the road with us was the last stop in her planned life. She was so determined.
The conversation I saw between her and Master Liu was that she was asking Master Liu about this matter. The conversation came to an end and I heard it.
At the end of the diary, there is a passage written by Shen Xing to Brother Chengxin. That is Shen Xing's true explanation to Brother Chengxin.
Su Chengxin:
If one day you finish reading this diary, you may be able to understand why I did this.
Maybe the only thing you can't understand is that since I am determined to die, why do I greedily decide to spend a day of happiness with you? This is a decision I made before asking Master Liu, to spend a day of happiness with you.
In fact, I can't give you a complete answer to this question, because there is one of the most unreasonable things in this world, and that is love at first sight.
It is not something based on appearance or external conditions, but when there is such a person, your heart beats when he appears.
I love Guan Rui. Our relationship has gone through time and suffering. It has never been spectacular, but it has a solid foundation.
Did I fall in love with you at first sight? I think maybe I can't use the word "love" because my love has already been given to Guan Rui. When I see you for the first time, my heart will beat. Is that a temptation? Or, if I don't end my life, am I destined to have a truly intense love? Is it the kind of person who decides on each other as soon as they meet
I don’t know, I’m conflicted.
But no matter what, I cannot blaspheme my love with Guan Rui or his deep devotion to me.
However, I will still fantasize about starting a new life with you.
Sometimes, I think about whether I am a bad woman like this? I always think so... How can I fall in love with a man other than Guan Rui in my life
No, no, I can't accept it! ! !
But will it be wonderful if life starts again
I don't know, I don't know...
This paragraph ended in such a messy way, because the owner was in a very messy mood, so even the handwriting of this paragraph was a bit messy, unlike Shen Xing's previous diaries which were as neat and clean! It can be seen that Shen Xing has not made any decision until the end...
The feeling of falling in love at first sight is indeed an irresistible feeling. People can be rational and have strong self-control, but how can people control their feelings
On the other hand, it is the love that has lasted through the years. In the face of such love, how can we blaspheme
Keep this love complete, or start a new happy life...
I took this diary and imagined myself in such a situation. How should I make a decision? Unfortunately, I really can't think of it. I can only say that at that time, any decision was full of accidental factors, and the answer could not be given in advance.
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In the early morning of the next day, Brother Chengxin and I squatted on the steps, looking at the morning glow in the sky, both of us silent.
Before that, I had already told Brother Chengxin about Shen Xing’s story and the last paragraph about Shen Xing.
Then, there was such silence.
"It's really hard to choose. Guan Ling is very good, very good..." The first person to break the silence was Brother Chengxin.
"What? Do you regret inserting someone else's perfect love?" I asked.
"No, my heart skipped a beat when Shen Xing saw me for the first time. Didn't I have a special feeling when I saw her for the first time? If it hadn't been like this, no matter how good she was, I wouldn't have fallen in love with her so quickly, right?"
"It makes no sense, two people fell in love at first sight at the same time!" I said, but I kept thinking of Ruxue and that sentence, meeting each other was not accidental, we were already in love at first sight, so why not myself
"Whether it doesn't make sense or makes sense, she's gone."
"Then do you still want to meet her in the next life? Or should you give the opportunity to Guan Rui?"
"Being able to fall in love at first sight is the accumulation of many lifetimes. Shen Xing and I are the ones who will be together in the next life, and I will not give it to anyone. I...I just want to see her earlier and give her Guan Rui's Her warmth." Brother Chengxin said seriously.
I looked at Brother Chengxin in surprise, but Brother Chengxin said four words to me seriously: "Just a little more!"