"You are calmer than I thought. It is human nature to cry at this time, right?" Jiang Yi did not rush to answer my question. Instead, he asked me a question.
My expression was calm, but secretly I wanted to see something from Jiang Yi's expression. What did he mean by asking me this question? Helpless, Jiang Yi's expression has rarely changed. Even his eyes are watertight and do not reveal any emotion. Unless his voice is special, it is broadcast on the news network, and I can't tell any clues.
However, I still answered him, using the answer I had already thought of, with a helpless and sad voice: "I really want to cry, but I can't cry. You know, no matter which meridian it is, the Shanzi meridian is the best at fighting." People who are like this always have to support this lineage. No matter what happens in the future, our lineage is a reincarnation and will always enter the 'Kunlun Curse'. Why do you think I have the right to cry?"
Jiang Yi said: "The curse of Kunlun? This place that cultivators can't even see or hope for, do you think it's a curse? It's just that it's better to cry out or not to cry, which is very sad and hurtful, right? The son's disobedience is the next best thing."
"Yes, I can't cry. I'm in a daze. I don't even know if I'm hurt or not." When I said this, my voice was extremely decadent. It was true, but I said it deliberately. After watching the CD , I think I should do this.
Originally, I had questions to ask Jiang Yi. For example, according to Lu Fanming's statement, Kunlun seemed to only recognize power, which was very inconsistent with the Taoist fairyland in my mind, but I didn't ask at this moment.
My expression was dull, as if I had fallen into deep sadness, but in my heart, I don’t know why, but I was always thinking about this sentence: "I am thinking, does this matter have any meaning to me in China? People are valuable in themselves." Knowing, the most important thing is self-knowledge! ! 'No why?' It was pure instinct that made me think about this sentence, but after thinking about it for a long time, I still couldn't understand the meaning of it, so I simply stopped thinking about it, but the expression on my face was obviously getting more and more dull.
Jiang Yi stood in the room and looked at me quietly for a while, then finally came over, patted me on the shoulder, and said, "Don't be too sad."
I didn't answer blankly, but Jiang Yi sighed and started to collect the information he brought me. At this time, I had a reaction. I raised my head and looked at Jiang Yi, my eyes were very sad and longing. : "Can't you just leave one?"
Jiang Yi said: "This information is also confidential. You can just remember it after reading it. Besides, the video that can comfort you should be that video. I have seen it and I know that your master actually misses you very much." .”
Have you seen it? That should be for sure.
I was thinking silently in my heart, but my eyes and expression became disappointed at the same time. Jiang Yi collected the information and said: "My time is limited, I have to leave first, but I still want to say something to you, if If you can’t hold it in, it’s better to cry.”
In the past, I should have been moved by this kind of concern from the elders, but at this time, my heart was full of worries and doubts, and I became defensive unconsciously, but a line of clear tears finally slipped out of my eyes. I didn't do it for Jiang Yi, but actually, I was still sad.
The sound of the door closing, the sound of footsteps getting further away, and Jiang Yi left.
I wiped away the tears on my face, and my expression returned to calmness. I think Master should know that when I think of you, I am no longer crying in youth, but it is maturity and deeper longing, turning my longing into It becomes your own motivation and a breathing habit.
You must also miss your master so much.
That morning, the paper falling from the window had messy writing on it - Kunlun!
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The rain in autumn is always like this. It stopped for a day yesterday and started drizzling again this morning.
I was wearing a black shirt, black pants, and sunglasses, letting the rain fall on my shoulders. I stood in this cemetery with a calm and sad expression. Standing next to me in the same posture were Xiao Bei, Brother Yuan Yi, and Gao Gao. rather.
"That's it. This time Hui Gen'er was forcibly brought back to the master by his master's fellow disciples. He was said to have not mastered his studies and had to suspend his studies for a year. As for Qiangzi, he had not mastered his studies and could not move freely. . But they said that the death anniversary will always come in a year. In the next few months, I'm afraid I won't be able to come every month. I have something to do, but I don't think you will blame me, and don't be lonely. , because in this life, I will never forget you two brothers. It’s so hateful to think about it. How can I die?” It was me who spoke. When I said it at the end, I always thought of Lao Hui’s back rushing back. I remembered that Hongzi came out of hiding and said to me: "Chengyi, actually I am already dead."
I didn't want to let this sadness spread, so I simply opened the wine I brought with me and sprinkled it on the graves of Lao Hui and Hong Zi. Then I took a big sip myself, and then handed the bottle to Xiaobei next to him.
After the battle and recuperation in the hospital, Xiaobei's body was fine, but his white hair would never go back. He took a big sip of wine and roared with a suppressed and sad tone. :"happy!"
A bottle of strong wine. Brother Yuan Yi brought the Shao Dao from the north. After turning it around in our hands, only the bottom of the bottle was left. I simply poured the rest of the wine into Lao Hui and In front of Hongzi's grave, I lit a few more cigarettes and placed them in front of Lao Hui and Xiaobei's graves. I said: "Light the cigarettes and drink the wine. Some things have happened in the past few months. Let's chat." .”
I simply sat cross-legged in front of the graves of Lao Hui and Hong Zi, and the other brothers also sat down.
In the drizzle of autumn, in such a solemn place in the cemetery, we started chatting in a low voice, whether talking to ourselves or talking crazy words, and occasionally we would chuckle, maybe in the eyes of others , like a madman.
However, if you only need to comfort yourself with your own feelings, or all your feelings, why should you have to ask others to understand you? It doesn’t matter, I don’t care!
When we came out of the cemetery, the drizzle gradually stopped, and a ray of sunset hung in the sky. We actually stayed in this cemetery from morning to evening. The three bottles of Shao Knife that Brother Yuan Yi brought had been drunk unconsciously, and we walked out of the cemetery. By that time, we were all half drunk.
"I'm going back now. My girlfriend is waiting for me to eat. I guess I'll get scolded again because I smell drunk." It was Xiaobei who spoke. After so much, with the passage of time, he regained his shyness. Shy, just like when we first met.
"I'm leaving too. My parents are waiting for dinner at home." The speaker was Gao Ning, who, like Xiaobei, lived in this city.
Most of the people in the department live in this city.
"I have to leave too. I'm on the plane tonight. It's rare that Xi'er has time to accompany me for two days, and I'm free too." Brother Yuan Yi said casually.
I laughed. After the war, these "cultivators" who were so magical in the eyes of ordinary people lived ordinary lives, and some also had ordinary happiness. I laughed, and the remaining brothers could still have such happiness. , shouldn’t you be happy
And Lao Hui, Hong Zi... I hope your souls are well, well. My master once said about sublimation. They are all people with sublimated souls. I think of Hong Zi’s smile when he left, But he took out his mobile phone and called Qinhuai, asking him to pick us up. He said, "Brother Yuan Yi, I also want to go to the airport. Let's go together and let Qinhuai pick us up. It should be faster."
Yes, I have already booked a flight to Yunnan. This time, thinking about it, I laughed, because I was going to pick up Ruxue, and Brother Chengxin insisted that I go to pick up Ruxue, and then go to the Northeast to meet him. .
I understand what he means. Ruxue and I also tacitly agree with his arrangement. How can we be reluctant to agree
After sadness, there will always be happiness, just like now!
Just like in life, you are not qualified to complain about the unfairness of fate, because whose life does not have a trace of happiness that belongs to them? Regardless of whether the happy time is more or less, it is always happiness. Think that you should be happy for happiness, not sad for adversity. Whatever you think about, you will naturally see and feel.
So, no wonder Master once said, whether you laugh or not, it’s just in your own heart.