"Eldest sister, you are so kind to me... I will never be able to repay your kindness in this life, but eldest sister, I am sorry for you..."
"How...how could I like a man? I am very ashamed and depressed, but I still can't help but think of him every day. Sister, I have tried hard and controlled it, but...but I really can't help it. I just want... As long as I close my eyes, all I can see is him. Sister, I have endured for so many years, I have endured not confessing to him, and I have endured not to hurt you, but later, he belonged to someone else, and I... And I still let you down..."
"Eldest sister, how come I failed like that? Why did I fail like that? He... it's impossible for him to like me, and I made you sad. Eldest sister, my life has been a mess over the years, a mess... But Even so, I still don't want to... I don't want to just make do with it for the rest of my life... I can't imagine that I married a strange woman, and then... And then I just make do with it, make do with my never-seeing thoughts. Until death…”
"Harm others as well as yourself, eldest sister... I really can't do such a thing..."
"Maybe... maybe I can forget him tomorrow? Maybe... maybe I can still meet the person I like?"
"Sister, I'm done, you... just beat me to death."
…
Zhou Chi was already drunk, his whole body was limp, his eyes were out of focus, but he still struggled to unbutton his buttons, while he kept mumbling: "Elder sister... Just beat me to death... Beat me to death, it's you." I won't be sad anymore, and I... I don't have to be so depressed, elder sister, I... know I was wrong, but... But I... probably can't change this mistake, you... just beat me to death."
Zhou Ran's eyes were filled with tears, and he watched helplessly as Zhou Chi shivered and took off his long gown, then knelt so softly at his feet. He really had a bad ability to drink, so he drank such a small bottle, just like that. His whole body was already red, and he knelt in front of Zhou Ran, kowtowing his head repeatedly, and kept crying: "Sister, I... what should I do... what should I do? I am already thirty-four. … Am I destined to grow old alone? Elder sister, elder sister, what do you think I should do?”
what to do
What do you want me to do
Zhou Ran couldn't stop crying. She had never cried like this since she could remember. When she heard that Lu Zhishan was getting married, she just sat in the room for a day. Although she wanted to cry, she couldn't. She still endured it. A woman as strong as Erlang would naturally shed tears, but at this time, facing Zhou Chi like this, she couldn't stop her tears at all.
Zhou Chi said that he always regarded Zhou Ran as his mother, but in fact, why didn't she treat Zhou Chi as her son
Even now that she has a son, her heart still hurts Zhou Chi more.
This is her younger brother, the child she raised single-handedly.
Zhou Ran wiped away his tears hard, then suddenly reached out and grabbed Zhou Chi's belt, and dragged him straight out of the dining room, across the room, across the courtyard, and straight to the ancestral hall. He only scared the servants in the house along the way. The maidservants were so busy that they knelt down to avoid it, and no one dared to stop him. Only the housekeeper saw this posture and knew that something was going to happen, so he was so busy that he sent people to find Liu Changsheng and come back.
…
"It's boring to live, right? Do you want to die? Then I will help you!" Zhou Ran whipped Zhou Chi hard on the back. She had not dealt with such a heavy hand for many years since she came down from the battlefield. .