I like you, clumsy and dull, you have nothing but give everything you have. —He Jinnian
I have been shining brightly since the day I was born. I can always easily solve the problems faced by children of the same age.
I never worry about my grades, but life without worries would actually be so boring after too long.
Meeting her may have cost me all the luck in my life.
And I never had the luck to be with her again.
From junior high school to high school, from high school to college, I always felt that she was someone I was very grateful to, and I had no unnecessary thoughts about her. Even when she sent Xu Zeyan a love letter, I just felt a little disappointed.
Such loss does not make me sad, nor does it make me heartbroken.
It's probably the feeling that your best friend suddenly has a significant other, and you are frozen by her.
But there are always so many people paying attention to my world, which makes me forget about it quickly.
Until that day on the basketball court. I saw why she was saying hello for a long time, so I went over and said a few words to her.
Little did he know, his boyfriend came over in an instant, with a look of sworn sovereignty, which was particularly annoying to see.
But I didn't say it, I always thought I could walk away as coolly as before.
I don’t know why, but suddenly, I care...
Maybe it's because of what she said to Xu Zeyan: We don't call it a quarrel, we call it a separation.
Maybe it was because she was looking at me out of the corner of her eye, intentionally or unintentionally.
In short, I suddenly lost my composure.
I am rarely not calm, but when I am not calm I will do something special...
For example, I know she went to the library;
For example, I met her by chance in the past.
As I sat next to her, I could feel my indifference turning into nervousness.
I was so nervous that I reluctantly said: Single people have nothing to share.
The next second, her reply completely stunned me. She said she was also single.
This feeling is really wonderful, indescribably wonderful, and cannot be described with any adjectives.
In fact, what I look forward to most is the class reunion.
Because I know that on that day many people will put my name and her name together and appear at the same time.
However, what I didn't expect was that Chen Yingying came out halfway.
But she seems to be the key to me determining my own feelings.
I propose, play dice.
The reason is simple. I want to take advantage of my drunkenness to say things I wouldn't dare say and do things I wouldn't dare do.
But what I never expected is that her drinking capacity is so good...
I suddenly felt that I became so small in front of her, and she... was so dazzling.
The sound of beer bottles being opened kept ringing in my ears, and people around me fell down one after another.
But she half-closed her eyes and looked at me seriously, which made me flustered.
Finally I decided: pretend to be drunk.
In fact, he wasn't really pretending to be drunk. He probably drank too much and the blood in his body was boiling, but his head was very clear.
I could feel her gently hugging me in the taxi, and I could feel her unique aroma combined with the aroma of wine.
At this moment, I felt like I couldn't bear it anymore.
Some things can be left unsaid, but some things must be done.
In the dim light of the living room on the first floor, the moment I suddenly hugged her, I was probably more nervous than she was.
What I wanted to know most at that time was...did she see her own heart clearly
Xu Zeyan... or... me? (To be continued)